Kessoku Kokoro | A Bocchi the Rock Fanfic

Chapter 49: ...By Everyone

Author: PSA: We will be making a probably epilogue for this fic from here on out because therapy and we need to touch grass. Apparently that's good for us. But this is going to be the ending of this fanfic. As much as we would love to expand on it more, we feel like it would be better to end it here soon rather than expand it further.

Author: Also we've got like life stuff to do so yeah.

Author: ALSO WE GOT A FRIEREN FANFIC SO GO READ IT.

Author: Thanks for the year of support. 

Karaoke System

Kita's mindscape was... 

Incredibly sparkly and flashy. Looking at it, just... hurts his eyes severely. Everywhere you looked there were photos and cameras galore. Attractive people posting the latest trends down to the letter. There were also delicious food, the up and coming popular movies and anime and a ton of cute things. 

Tokumei feels like he's standing out too much for being the exact opposite of everything in this mindscape. It feels wrong. Almost as if he shouldn't be here. But he's got to save Kita someway somehow. So he's gotta do what he gotta do in order to drag her out of this...

Hell?

Heaven?

Oh whatever.

He sees a flash of red zoom by. Coupled with the scent of perfume, he immediately knew who it was. He rushes to chase after her. That's only made difficult because he keeps getting blinded by the flashing cameras, bumping into random idols, getting a face full of cake and being flattened by a photo.

He sighs and just thinks about what to do for a moment. Kita loves trendy things and anything that's remotely attractive by society's standards. He then notices that he was standing beside a clothing shop. He enters it and buys some clothes to look as fashionable as possible.

"Let's see," He said while inspecting the clothes. "Pattern filled top, scarf, jacket and you can never go wrong with jeans."

He walks out of the clothing shop and soon enough, the flash of red dashed towards him to take a photo. Then he takes her hand in his, not letting go while she struggles to be set free. It's a good thing that he's stronger than her physically.

Pouting, he asked, "Why are you so damn hard to catch when you run away?"

"Isn't that the point? I don't want to be caught."

"Well forgive me for wanting to strike a conversation with one of my best friends, but you know better than this. You can't just run away from every single problem that you have. Even if you did run away, I'd always be there to drag you back to face it."

"I don't want to."

"You're acting like a kid. Toughen up."

"I DON'T WANT TO OKAY!" Kita's mindscape all of a sudden lost it's very color. Everything that sparkled was now in a shade of dull greys and silvers. Everything stopped moving too. Almost as if everything was a mannequin in a fashion store. It felt unnaturally creepy. Especially with all the silence in this previously bustling mind. 

"Have you ever lived a life where you just have someone you love breathing down your neck every single day for everything you do? Every time you want to express yourself, it just gets shut down. Every time you try to be independent, you're caged. Every time you want to be free, you're criticized for just wanting a bit of lenience." 

"I have."

"Then you know better than anyone that you should leave me be. I'm me. And I'm not going to let anyone take that away from me. I just want to be myself. Is that so wrong?"