Omega and the beast

Chapter 30

To discover from one day to another how you have two sides of yourself, two sides that in fiction are cool as fuck but which in reality are also quite cool, are mind blowing. Just saying! To say the least!

One side of yourself is that sassy, ​​happy and outgoing twink with a twinkle in his eye and who loves to act brat against his slave driver combined lover. The other side is more animalistic, lets you live out the teenage fantasies you had when you read fantasy novels and hoped to one day discover the magical world.

These past several days have been completely wicked. Since I transformed a few days ago and finished with the most critical phase, I've tried to adapt to my new life as a wolf shifter. Fear, anxiety combined with curiosity and love joined me thru these days.

I've learned how Reed is an alpha. Alpha over the Hookhill pack, the wolves that live in the Hookhill Estate's nature reserve.

There is a lot to take in. How they are all shifters who live in secret alongside human society, how I of all people apparently also belong to this breed, these shifters and how my case of awaken my beasty side this late in my life is unusual.

Reed thinks it has to do with the fact that I grew up among humans without knowing what I truly am. How the mind is stronger than the body and therefore protected me from shifting form.

When I think back to my childhood, I try to grasp details that could point in the direction of me being a fucking animal. Something that may indicate how I've been close to shift.

And my nightmares, sickness at a young age and itching skin was probably due to that fact. My body wanted, or needed, to shift. But nothing more happened.

I may have had a reputation for being problematic and my life has always been filled with... odd adventures. But overall, I've felt good.

The little I've seen of my own wolf shape has shown me a wolf with as brown fur as my hair. Purple eyes and almost a cute puppy face.

Reed has told me, and shown me, how male wolves should be muscular, big, majestic... While I'm more petite, elegant, and cute. Not that I know much about wolves or dogs for that matter, but I didn't look intimidating in any way. I... I'm a fucking twink even in my wolf shape!

"No, now he opens the gate!"

"What a dipshit!"

"Do you really think it's a devouring monster on the other side?"

"Yes, it's not his wife, it can't be. She's dead!"

"Ryan?" I flinched, looking up from my phone.

"Huh?" Alex nodded at the TV.

"The movie, do you really think it's a demon?"

"I've already seen this movie..."

"Oh, right."

"I think Chang is the dragon."

I sat with some of the others in the Reeds pack and watched a Marvel movie in the east wing. It was me, Alex, Jack, Klara, and Ned. Reed was out with the others, guarding the borders or doing other wolfie things I guess.

It was so weird... Before, before I shifted, I could be away from Reed all day without it really bothering me. I missed him of course, longed to meet him like you do when you're interested in someone. I could be restless.

But now... It almost hurt. It made me feel anxious. I wanted to cry when he was leaving with Angus a few hours ago and I felt scared, lost. Reed assured me that he would be back soon and asked me to stay with Alex, something I felt was an act of babysitting on her part. But I accepted her company since it was better than being completely alone.