Omega and the beast

Chapter 35

It was sunny outside. Sunny and windless although trees and plants were frostbitten. It was cold today, as it should be on an autumn day like this. But still, I didn't freeze.

On the contrary. I was warm and satisfied in terms of temperature, but that's how it should be when you're a fucking furry beast.

I lay huddled under a bush near a tree, staring at the others jumping around, seemingly playing in the meadow like if they were some fucking happy dogs. I lay there curled up on the ground with my chin resting between my two fucking front paws.

I was shaking, but not from cold since my fucking fur kept me warm. No, I was scared, but I didn't want to admit it. Not to myself or anybody else.

But Reed understood. He lay close to me. His slightly larger and more impressive body lay pressed against mine, protective and comforting.

Unlike me, he didn't keep his head at ground level. He observed the others dignified. He lay so close, sometimes touching my cheek with his nose, licking behind my ear, or just puffing me affectionately, comforting. But I didn't even care to look at him.

I was just waiting. Waiting to be dominated or forced to do something. Or maybe forbidden to do stuff I could have wanna do. But I had no feeling for anything.

I know Reed promised he wouldn't force me into anything, not in that way. And he hasn't done so yet either. But it will happen sooner or later, fucking hypocrite. By the way, I don't want to be a lousy beast. I don't want to be furry with a fucking tail above my ass! I want to be Ryan, the unlucky slave who may have had a life of misery in a way, but who was still free back then.

"My love, shall we not join the others?" A dull grunting kind of sound from Reed made me move an ear, but nothing more. "It's okay." He puffed at me with his nose. "Come on," he licked my cheek, pulling in my ear playful. "Or we can take a round by ourselves."

I don't always need to hear the thoughts of others to understand what they mean. I would have understood what Reed wanted even if he didn't spoke to me. With my shifting it's like I'm slowly learning to interpret their body language, their expressions. How to be a fucking wolf.

Like Alex... Right now, she jumped around Jimmy with a mischievous waving tail while she chopped for a leaf that singled down from a tree. Jack and Hannah wrestled in the grass some distance away. I could see how it was playful and not seriously. And one of the beta couples lay and cuddled affectionate...

Reed thinks my instincts will kick in faster than for others since I, with his words, needs to know how to be my true self to best take care of myself, which I translate to so no other alpha will manage to steal you without you knowing he tries.

"Ryan," he placed his head over my neck, cuddling.

I'm so glad that I can ignore the others attempts to speak to me, right now. Right now, their attempts to make contact telepathically haven't been successful. I shut them out.

But Reed... I cannot shut out the alpha, probably no alpha at all actually. I haven't met anyone but Reed or Angus who's vice alpha, and he's not trying anything usually.

Oh, and Buck-fucker! But Reed... As the alpha of the pack, if he wants attention, he takes it. And... Like his fucking alphamega...

"Ryan, please."

"You can join them if you want."

"I won't leave your side," he growled low. Not threatening or anything, more like an effect on his thoughts. He rubbed his head against me. "Give it a try."