Omega and the beast

Chapter 49

You have a lot to reflect on when you spend several days in a dark crater. Like why you chose to dye your hair green in your youth in the belief that you would look badass, or whether fishnet leggings were a selling concept for a rave or not.

But it could also be a place of salvation, where you come to some kind of peace in the situation you are in. Where you feel that yes, you are tormented even though they weren't allowed to cause you harm, but at least you escaped the humiliation they forced upon you.

And when you were accompanied by someone from your life, the cold and hunger were worth everything.

"Son, are you ready to submit and apologize today? You know that I care for you and this isn't to punish you, but to teach you to do better. To adapt your true self."

"To help?"

"The ring of alphas wants what is best for the alphamegas and that is to teach and raise you, Rhysand. And the filthy humans and Reed didn't succeed with that task. So, do you ask for my forgiveness?"

"I have nothing to apologize for."

"All your lies, your behaviour. But if you just kneel here beside me, I will forgive you."

"Sorry, but like my strongest and biggest role model puts it, and he's not human. I must not tell lies!" How I had meant Harry Potter he never had to know.

"You're ruining it for all of us, and mostly yourself."

"No, you are the one breaking the laws about hurting an alphamega in your seek and need for a power you don't deserve. This by stealing me from my TRUE mate, which is also a crime, isn't it?"

"No, we saved you. But maybe tomorrow you'll realize that?"

Thor thought himself stubborn, but then he hasn't met me before. He may see me as a coward, weak and submissive little boy who heartbroken yearns for his mate. And he's true, but I can sure as hell be badass and fucking more stubborn than him!

And when I know I'm right, I want to try to fight for it, if it so kills me in the process. I could stand up against him, so why not try to continue so I can prove to the alphas how I am right, but also can speak for myself.

Yet... I would never dare to. Or would I? Reed could speak for us, but... I need to tell them my story too, and if they love the alphamegas as much as everyone claims it must also include me.

I'm an alphamega. A heartbroken, lost, sleepy and incredibly nauseous alphamega. Shivering as fuck with no energy to even move to my usual corner to take a leak or reach for the fucking dog bowl to eat.

The food they had given me was more like the leftovers from the others' dinner except what Geneviève brought me around midnight. I got to keep her food while I threw up the rest. They brought more blankets and bearskins to keep me warm, but Mr. Sparkles warmed me the most.

But this last couple of days I've felt worse, health-wise. My nausea never left, and my shivering body never got warm, not even in my wolf form. I didn't even have the strength to shift into my wolf form anymore.

Geneviève advised me to stay in that form to keep extra warm, but I liked to talk to Mr. Sparkles and was unsure if he could hear me as a wolf.

"S-Sparkles, f-fuck i-it's c-cold." He never left my lap, purring soothingly. But now he meowed anxiously, kneading at me. "F-fuck, t-this f-fucking..."

It was afternoon when the gate opened, and shuffling feet entered the bare den. I hardly reacted to it, falling in and out of sleep, shivering extremely.