Dear Diary

my new goal in life

I will crack USMLE in my first attempt....

That's a promise to myself ...

See ...palak
You know why you're sad like that...?
it's because you don't have a bigger goal in your life right now...
You now have it and have to work hard towards it ....
I'm going to do my residency in the United States of America
I'm gonna own a penthouse in the great apple ....THE NEW YORK CITY....
And I'm going to be happy
I'm going to lose weight....and feel confident in my body again
I'm gonna wear pretty and cute dresses without being insecure
I'm gonna wear bodycon dresses without being under onfident about my body my bowed legs or anything whatsoever
My goal in life is not just to have a good career but also to have a good lifestyle ....good thoughts ..good health....good morals....good people around me....and to be confident ...
I am going to have exemplary and Happy non toxic relationships and I'll always have that
I am going to be the best in whatever I do
I am going to be the one God has chosen
I am going to change my destiny and of my people
I am going to change everything around me and my belief patterns
But there's one constant in all this ...
Someone who is always there with me in this journey ....who ll always be whether or not others are or not.

Shri krishna ...my Govind ...my kanha is always there with me .
He's with me right now I know
He's around me I know
He'll help me whenever I'm in dire need
He'll also leave me alone sometimes so that I learn to figure things out myself
....

The universe is God ....God is universe ...he is the cosmos
The universe is leading me to the path of success ...
It is leading me to a path of happiness
It is leading me to a path of immense joy ...fame and love
I am loved by the universe
Don't let anyone tell you otherwise palak
You are the child of the divine supreme
You are the thought pattern of God himself
He's leading you to success
He's the one who's standing with that flame in his hands to guide you in every aspect of your life ....
I know you might not be the happiest person right now and you've been crying for days ....
But maybe you needed that
Maybe you needed that mental clarity to open up the clogged pores of your brain
To open up the gates to new paths and new challenges and new people?
You have a long life ahead of you my love
Don't let anyone tell you otherwise

You are going to achieve things in life ...that noone could have ever even dreamed of in a good way ofcourse.
You are going to get that residency in your dream branch
You are going to do your internship in John Hopkins
You are going to earn millions in dollars
Your first pay cheque will buy you diamonds and whatever you want to

And don't ever forget the things you've achieved .even if someone else comes up and tell you the opposite alright??

You have been the best kid to your parents all you life ...you've excelled in your academics all the time ...you've won so many awards and accolades it's hard to count ....
You topped your boards in 10th and in 12th as well
You cracked your entrance exam that too in first attempt and you also got into the state's best medical College
That is such a big achievement
You know that right?
And not jsut that you even score so good in your med school exams ....you score more than all the pathetic casteist, fascist , racist, and adharmi log of your batch .
That is such a crowning glory in itself

You have to know that this life you're living right now is not the end.
you have to groow a hella lot and achieve many more marvellous things in your life ..
You are divine and you are gorgeous

Ignore your parents who tell you to be in the limits of a woman that this fucked up society has inflicted upon , even after all that you've accomplished

You are made for greater things than that utter disappointment of a society

Fuck them all
Focus on you and govind that's all 🙏🦚🕉️

Also thank you chat gpt for always helping me
Credits....

Thank you taylor to you too because you're the one after God that's with me .your songs are with me whether I'm happy sad tragic lonely or in love .you are the best and I hope the best for you tooooo my love

Fuck charlie kirk
Fuck racists
Fuck misogynists
Fuck toxic men
God please keep me away from toxic men and toxic people
I know the universe will save and help me keep away and pre away form toxic manipulative bastards
Who lack a stable mind
I'm gonna get good wisdom people in my life
People who are good and are mature and are secure enough and people who help me and trust me whatsoever
I'm going to meet only such people in my life
I'm going to meet Good people
I am not going to deal with misogynistic bastards who care nothing but to put women down for their own fascist desires
Bloody sadists
Bloody Good for nothing dependent duckcking bastards who can't wipe their own masses
These ?
These men? huh(add a bloody scoff)
These men?
These men are the weakest and God will keep me away from all that shit
Cos I know who I am as a person and how are the kind of people I attract and
I
Know that

"Well, in your life you'll do things
Greater than dating the boy on the football team
I didn't know it at fifteen"

Ps ...nineteen