Heaven's On Fire |Dimebag Darrell

Abbott

May 18th, 1995

  Days in paradise were exactly that, paradise. Our time went by in a blink of an eye and next thing we knew we were saying our goodbyes and catching our flights home. Here I sat at the dining table in Carolyn's house, scribbling away in an old leather covered book that I've kept for all these years. Dabbling in my own writing here and there when time allowed it. Darrell, Vinnie and I thought to come over and have dinner with their mother since it had been a while for us all.

  "What are you doing sweetheart?" Carolyn spoke up, taking the chair next to mine. I could see her eyeing the book that I was focused on. Quickly halting my action and closed the book. "Hah! Nothing really, just some old poetry." feeling myself bit my lip. Normally I was an open book and had no problem sharing things about myself with others, especially her, but this was a bit more personal. I am not sure if I really could share anything in this book with anyone. Nothing really worth to show off anyways. Grabbing my book, I tucked it back into my backpack that I still have after all these years. The very backpack that had carried everything I ever owned at one point, now it only had one purpose left, carrying what I needed for that day. 

  Carolyn changed the subject by asking how our trip to Hawaii went. Bummed now that it was over honestly. Now that we were back, the guys were expected to leave in just a couple of days to get back out on the road. Part of me will always feel deprived of time with Darrell, I shared him with the world after all. My "Dime time" is what we liked to call it. 

  Movement from outside caught my attention, watching both Darrell and Vinnie talk around the grill where burgers were being made. Hearing his laughter caused a smile to form on my face, I had it bad. Grabbing my water, I took a sip when both brothers made their way inside with the fresh burgers. The plate had just made it to the table when Carolyn spoke up, "So, when will you two allow me to become a grandmother?" she asked. The question was so random, it caused me to choke on my water a little. I will admit though, I did love the fact that she was always straight forward and straight to the point, even if I was the target. Catching both me and Darrell off guard.

  Darrell frowned a little, rubbing my back to help me breathe through my choking. I am sure he was wondering why she was asking. "Well shit mom, we never really thought about it really. I mean I am only 29 and Sable is only 26," he laughed nervously towards his mother. I showed my support by nodding my head in agreement, I was still trying to wrap my head around in what she was asking about. Carolyn wanted me and Darrell to have kids.

  Vinnie noted my reaction and snickered, taking his seat across from me. "So? You two need to start thinking about these things, you both have been together for some time now, 4 years coming this August. I am not getting any younger, and I'd like to enjoy some grand babies before I go," Carolyn beamed at her youngest. Darrell turned to me as I turned to him, we were a little confused in the rush. The topic of us having kids was never really one we thought on, I mean, should we? Vinnie could see the torture that his brother and I were enduring, "awe mom, leave the two kids alone. They still have time to think about those things. Let's not make them feel rushed," he winked in my direction. Thank you!

  Now I can see you completely agreeing with us being "too young" to have kids right now, but this is 1995. Things are different. Being in our 20's was a perfectly reasonable age to start a family in the eyes of society. It wasn't taboo or unheard of. In fact, it was odd for couples like Darrell and I to not start a family at our age. So, Carolyn feeling how she did was reasonable. We just never felt like we needed to conform to the expectations of others. Hence our marriage was not traditional at all.

  Dinner went off smoothly despite the off conversation of babies. Darrell and I were just about to say our goodbyes to head back home when a call came in on my phone, a number that was not a familiar one. Accepting the call, I placed it up to my ear, "This is Sabian." There was breathing for only a moment when the voice on the other end finally spoke up, "Hello Ms. Sabian Reeve. This is officer Leery, not sure if you remember me," he sounded hesitate. I knew who he was, "of course I do! What can I help you with officer Leery?" my question had caught both Darrell and Vinnie's attention. My nerves were popping up, I associated officer Leery with Ronnie, the very man who caused more trouble in my life...allowing me to lose time with Darrell. All because of him.