Hate Me Until You Can't [PSLU #4] [GL]

HM26

Sylvia's POV

I don't like hugs, I don't like cuddles, in short I don't like any physical interaction or anyone who's tries to touch me. It was never painted in my skin, and I had never been this clingy to my ex. Because I had a different love language before, not until Elise came.

I feel like she suddenly became my safe space, I feel like she became the type of home that I had been longing for— in which Krystal, Portia and Regina found in their significant other. Akala ko nga ang corny nilang pakinggan noon dahil sa tuwing nag kwe-kwento sila, they would always have this glittering moments within their eyes. Pero ito ako ngayon, I'm down bad with a professor.

So this is what it feels like? Pero bakit parang masyadong patanag naman kami sa isa't isa? Ganito ba talaga dapat ka-easy yun?

"Do you want to try baking with me?" I softly asked while my fingers are busy playing with the edge strands of her hair.

"Really? You'll teach me?" She clasps her hand together then switching to hugging my waist once again- pressing her body towards mine.

Clingy, Elise. At this moment, she doesn't sound like a professor to me.

I nodded before answering. "I can teach you with the menu that I made, yung lagi kong binibigay sayo."

"Okay then!" She happily said then stood up. She held me hands to pull me out of the bed. "Get your ass off, tara na! I'm excited!'

"Minsan iniisip ko kung meron ka bang DID. Feeling ko hindi ko matansya kung ano ba talaga ang ugali mo, ang hirap mong basahin minsan, Elise." Natatawang sabi ko, she continued to pull me out of the bed, pero nagpabigat muna ako. I want to enjoy this little moments with her.

"DID?" Her brows furrowed in confusion.

"Dissociative identity disorder, a mental condition that has a multiple personalities. It can be controlled by some pero may iba na hindi dahil bigla nalang siya lumilitaw." I explained while trying to fix the messy bed. Ang likot kasi minsan ni Elise, minsan pa nga nahuhulog nalang yung mga unan sa sahig.

"Is it hard to have one?" She bit her lower lips. Kusang dumako ang mata ko doon pero agad ko ring iniwas.

"Wala namang madaling mental disorder, Elise. Some of it might be even a curse para sa iba dahil lifetime na nakaukit sakanila yun."

"You're right, I'm sorry." She muttered.

"Marunong ka pala mag sorry?" Pabiro kong sabi, mahina naman niya akong hinampas sa braso.

"Shut up, I'm trying to be nice here." Masungit niyang turan.

It took more minutes just to convince Elise na need na naming kumilos para mag bake, she was too persistent to have more cuddles bigla. Mukang walang balak pang bumitaw sakin dahil biglang inantok, but when she heard that we will be baking some of her favorite cookies and brownies ay dali dali pa siyang tumayo at nauna sakin sa kitchen.

Maingat kong nilatag ang mga gamit at ingredients, mahal pa naman to kaya mahirap na. Minsan ko naring iniyakan to nung nakabasag ako at nakatapon nang hindi sinasadya.

Elise clamps her hands together like a child. "So, shall we start?"

"Just be careful with the vanilla extract, masyado mong hawak na hawak baka mabuhos mo lahat." Natatawa kong sabi na nagpanguso sakanya.

I gave her a signal to start with the ingredients, step by step. She was also patience dahil hindi naman basta-basta pwede ang paghalo, lalo na't kailangan ay tama lang.

"Will it take a long time?" Tanong niya habang nakatingin sa oven. Para siyang batang nag hihintay na mabigyan ng candy.

"A couple more minutes, Elise." I said giggling while watching her.