Hate Me Until You Can't [PSLU #4] [GL]

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[PT.2] WARNING: BULLYING, DRUGS, EXPLICIT WORDS, MENTAL ILLNESS ETC WILL BE MENTIONED. PLEASE MAKE SURE THAT YOU'RE CAPABLE OF READING BEFORE DOING SO.

I don't want to cause issues to the following chapters. My intention is pure and clear and I will be try my best not to make a mistake regarding this matter. Please try to understand, but I'm also open for any corrections or discussions that I may not foresee.

NOTE: Elise's point of view contains both moments during Exception and Hate Me Until You Can't, so for you to avoid getting spoiled and confused - you should have been able to read the Book 2 first.

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ELISE OLIVIA SALVADOR

"Try this Elise, I can assure you na magiging pampagana mo ito para sa upcoming board exam mo. Wala ka ng tulog oh, you need this to energize yourself." Pagpupumimilit niya sakin.

My high school friends have encouraging me to use drugs, they didn't even ask me to pay for it. They just wanted me to feel the freedom that I had been craving for years, and I feel so happy, because they understand me.

or maybe not.

So much for trying to prove myself with my friends that I ended up sucking people's attention that I'm doing everything I can just to make me feel those things, just to make me feel still I'm still breathing. Just to have friends because I don't want to get lonely again.

"Ayaw ko, if you guys want to ruin your bodies with that, then leave me alone." Pagmamatigas kong sagot sakanya.

Humalukipkip naman siya at mas inilapit sakin ang syringe. "Just this once Elise, if you still feel that it doesn't have a good effect on you then quits na tayo. Hindi na kita pipilitin."

Nagkatitigan kami ng ilang segundo, napabuntong hininga nalang ako dahil talagang parang pursigido na sila sa balak nilang gawin. Great, at least they just wanted me to try it not encouraging me to use it, right?

Maybe a bit of it will be fine. I'll be fine, like always, like the usual.

"Fine."  I finally say, a big smile plastered on their face. as if they won.

They cheered for my name as they carefully injected it on me. I felt a little bit sting, but at the same time it felt like there was something crept inside of me that has been completely awaken. They world in my eyes began to fade like a rollercoaster ride, but instead of it making me feel dizzy it felt like I was craving for more. I want more.

"Is there a percentage dosage for this? Like a maximum to use?" I asked, eyes slowly blinking.

"Yes, only one for a beginner like you." He smiled.

"Is it really like this? Gosh, my head is kind of aching but it felt like my body needs more." I said.

"It's kind of addicting, isn't?" Sunod sunod akong tumango at wala sa sarili na napangiti. I suddenly felt hot. "Welcome to the club, Elise. I'm sure after taking this no one could ever touch you again. They won't blame you for being fat again, you have us...remember that."

"Elise? Elise!" A loud bang noise coming from Agatha woken me up. "I had been trying to call your name numerous times, are you okay?"

I shamelessly nodded. "I'm sorry I was just thinking some things."

"Sila parin ba?" She clicked her tongue, her eyes squinted. "Elise, forget about them. They are not your real friends."

I know, I knew about that. But I just couldn't help it since they were the first ones who made me feel like I was being accepted in this world. Sila lang ang bukod tangi kong naging kakampi when no one else stood by my side when I got bullied during my high school days.