Hate Me Until You Can't [PSLU #4] [GL]

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WARNING: BULLYING, DRUGS,  EXPLICIT WORDS, MENTAL ILLNESS ETC WILL BE MENTIONED. PLEASE MAKE SURE THAT YOU'RE CAPABLE OF READING BEFORE DOING SO.

I don't want to cause issues to the following chapters. My intention is pure and clear and I will be try my best not to make a mistake regarding this matter. Please try to understand, but I'm also open for any corrections or discussions that I may not foresee.

NOTE: Elise's point of view contains both moments during Exception and Hate Me Until You Can't, so for you to avoid getting spoiled and confused - you should have been able to read the Book 2 first.

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ELISE OLIVIA SALVADOR

As paranoid as they say, I'm just relaying things with luck. Because I know I can get everything in sight, I can buy whatever I want. I have the name, power, money and connections- obviously adding to my collections are my suitors. However, I failed to capture the person that I love.

Raleigh Portia Lawson

A kid who's an innocent cat looking, a kid who was bounded to be independent to the point that she had already managed to build her own company in a young age along with her sister.

A kid who's a smart ass only tends to watch and read her books and prefers to hang out in library and cafe than to party.

A kid who got my attention, only because my parents asked me to do so. Because I never knew about her existence, not until they beg me to get her sister's attention. Nung buhay pa si Danny ay talagang pinipilit na nila akong agawin si Krystal, but I never even like her a bit. Ang tanging kumupkop lang ng atensyon ko nun ay ang kapatid niya.

Which also happens to become the main reason why I had a hater, not a typical bashing style. But I knew I was also the reason why she hated me.

"Get up Elise. Ihahatid na kita." She whispered on me, trying to make me stand up since I was getting too dizzy.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako biglang nakaramdam ng sobrang pagkahilo, o baka ganito talaga siya kabilis tumama. I feel so nausea and I can feel my throat getting dried up. But no, I knew exactly what is happening to me. I got drugged, except for the fact that I wasn't force. Kusa kong tinanggap ang alok nila dahil ayaw kong mawala sila sakin.

My high school friends, they were the only ones who made me strong when I got bullied for being too fat. Kaya ito ako, tanging humihingi ng validation sakanila na hindi ko matanggap sa mga sarili kong magulang.

They don't even know that I'm already using drugs, not to the extent that I was getting obsessed with it. Pero alam ko na minsan ko ng hinahanap hanap ito, but Agatha saved me at the same time she didn't try to prick on my side. Kusa narin akong nagpunta noon sa police station para kumuha ng drug test at nag pag therapy. Pero ito nanaman ako...kumukuha ng atensyon na hindi ko makuha sa sarili kong pamilya.

The cycle continued once again because I keep on disappointing them.

"No! Hindi pa pwede. I'm still having fun oh." I exclaimed happily, while holding on into her arms. I knew that she was getting pissed off, but my mind just went completely blank.

"Right, hindi pa nga nagagawa ni Elise ang pinapagawa naming dare sakanya." One of my friends confronted.

Napalunok ako, my mind doesn't want to do it, but my body wouldn't let me control myself. Just please Portia...get away from me. You don't deserve this kind of monster, you don't deserve someone like me.