Just a Little Bit of Your Heart

Chapter 27 - Healing

Healing is never an easy thing. There are times you are okay and sometimes emotions will hit you to the rock bottom. These what happened to me a year after Archon and I got married. I was hurt sa ginawa nila Mama Mondi at Papa Aziel but instead of running away, shielding myself from my family, I embrace the hurt and their love help me to heal, to understand na may mga bagay na kailangan mangyari para maging okay ang kasalukuyan. Minsan talaga hindi mo maintindihan ang proseso ng buhay para matuto ka. Madalas masalimuot, masakit at mahirap ito. But one thing I realized, sometimes you have to feel the pain. Ironic mang pakinggan yung phrase na 'Enjoy the Pain' pero totoo iyun, kase jan ka magiging malakas at mas matapang.

Pauwi ako nang bahay, kagagaling ko lang sa Italy to finish my short term course in Pastry and Culinary. Hindi na ako umattend ng graduation kahit na ang gusto nila Mama Keena at Mama Mondi nang bonggang selebrasyon. I just want to go home so bad. I missed my baby girl. It's been a week since I last saw them. Kahit labag sa kalooban ni Archon, he allowed me to feel and experience the independence while studying. Dinadalaw lang nila akong mag-ama tuwing bibisita sila sa opisina sa Italy. I know he can just check it via email or in the system pero ginagawa lang nilang mag-ama na rason yung may kailangan icheck on-site para madalaw ako.

Delainey Averrie is now three years old. Hindi na siya bulol at mas lalo na silang pinagbiyak na bunga ng Tatay niya lalo na ngayon na silang dalawa ang mas laging magkasama.

I slowly opened the office door and there I saw Archon on the swivel chair, sleeping with his headphones on while Eerie is also sleeping on his chest.

I smiled at them.

Masaya ang puso ko.

I secretly took a picture of them.

Then I proceed on removing Archon's headphone without waking him but I failed, naalimpungatang siya,nagdilat ng mata at kinusot iyun.

"Gosh.. I am really missing you ha... Even in my dream, you're in it. You're really whipped Archon Marasigan." Pinikit niya ang mata niya nang mariin. "I really miss your Nay-Nay, Errie." Hinigpitan niya ang yakap sa anak namin.

I smiled.

Archon and I were not together.

We are just the best parents to Errie.

Noong una nahirapan siyang tanggapin na hindi pa ako handa na iwork-out ang kasal namin. Ilang beses siyang lumuhod at umiyak. Sa huli ay kinausap siya ni Papa Aziel to give me space at matutong maghintay sa panahong handa na ako.

He stopped pushing me to work on our marriage but it doesn't mean he stopped showing and declaring his love for me. Archon has been courting me for two years. Ni hindi ko siya nakitaan ng pagkainip o pagmamadali, sapat na sa kanya na maiparamdam at mapaalala sakin kung gaano niya ako kamahal.

I truly appreciate it.

At hindi naman ako manhid. I felt it - the love and security.

Yes, there are times that I was so tempted to accept him, to let him in hindi lang sa buhay ni Errie.

Hindi lang naman kase dapat puro pagmamahal, kailangan din ng tiwala. That's what I want to restore before I fully accept him.

Maya-maya ay na napadilat nadin si Errie.

"Tay... Kita ko si Nanay oh." Sabi ni Errie at niyugyog ang braso ng Tatay, sabay turo sakin.

I stopped myself from chuckling.

Ang cute nila.

Mag-ama nga talaga.

"You dreamt of Nay-Nay too, Errie?" Tanong ni Archon na nanatiling nakapikit. "I think we need to go to Italy tonight. We both miss her."