**This chapter includes mention of ending one's life but please, if you have any trigger please skip this chapter and I encourage you to talk to your love ones or friend. If you're not comfortable to open up with them, you may message me anytime. Sometimes it feels good to open up to stranger because there will be no judgement or expectations. I know life can be hard sometimes with never ending trials but I will tell you, it was not the end. The end is when you give up life. Love you all.**
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After I came back from Italy, I have decided to renovate the 'Coffee on Us'. Kinailangan nadin kaseng palakihan ito dahil sa dumadaming customer. Marami ang may gustong mag dine in kaso lagi puno kaya no choice sila to take out nalang. Si Archon mismo ang nagdesign ng bagong cafe, mas pinalaki niya at ginawang second floor ang cafe, rustic and boho ang theme design. Bukod kase sa natapos niyang Business Administration, he took up Architecture tapos si Archer naman Engineering para ito sa linya ng negosyo ng pamilya namin na hotel and restaurant.
Super excited ako sa renovation na ito. Kaming tatlo ay may personal touch sa cafe pati mga empleyado ng cafe ay willing na tumulong, sense of bayanihan which I am so grateful for. Kaya isang buwan lang ay tapos na ang renovation at nagpablessing nadin kami.
First day ng opening ng cafe ngayon at maraming tao kaya kumuha ako ng extra helper para sa araw na ito. Pasara na kami kaya ramdam ko ang pagod kaya nagpasya akong maglakad at magpahangin sa tabing dagat. Tanaw ko parin naman ang cafe mula sa kinatatayuan ko.
A sense of fulfillment filled me as I am staring at the cafe.
Nangingibabaw ang ganda nito sa malayo. Dati parang wala akong pangarap, nakakatawa mang isipin. Sa totoo lang ang hangad ko lang dati ay maging asawa ni Archon na parang siya lang ang source ng happiness ko.
That was so silly and naive of me!
The hardship I faced alone made me the woman I am today. A woman who didn't depend her happiness with any man. A woman who knows her value and strength. A woman who has dreams and works for it.
Looking at it now, siguro kailangan ko talagang pagdaanan lahat ng iyon para maging mabuting babae at tao ako. Hardship will humble you and also, you will appreciate what you have now after looking back what you overcome to be in this moment. I am now much grateful of what I have, I have a beautiful daughter, a man undoubtedly loves me, and a family who take cares and loves me unconditionally. Kung dati pakiramdam ko may kulang sakin dahil ampon ako, ngayon hindi ko na maalala ang pakiramdam na iyon. I was meant to be adopted and loved by Mama Mondi at Papa Ahmed. And now, I have Archon and Errie, that was more than enough.
As I was walking in the shoreline, I saw someone I never thought I'll crossed path with, siguro sa susunod na panahon, hindi ngayon. I thought I will never be ready to face this woman as I remembered our hurtful exchange.
"Debs."
"Isla."
She smiled unsurely.
Hindi nga lang abot sa tenga ang ngiti. Something struck in me when I stared at her eyes. I remembered myself perfectly in her eyes, I remembered the broken and shattered Debbie I once was.
"What happened to you?"
Siguro hindi mawawala sa akin ang mag-alala, halos sabay kaming lumaki. Sayang nga lang at nagkalamat iyon. Don't misunderstood me, Isla is still beautiful as ever but her eyes is giving me something else. Hindi maipaliwag na lungkot at sakit.
She smiled again.
"Karma happened." She said bitterly.
"Isla..."
BINABASA MO ANG
Just a Little Bit of Your Heart
Roman d'amourArchon and Debs' Story ------ Bata palang gusto ko na siya. At ginawa ko ang lahat para mahalin niya ako. But I will always be the least pagdating sa kanya.