Vmin one Shots

"I wasn't ready to say goodbye"

a/n:from the prompt fest,request by JMLSM17 under soft angst.

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Jimin was pulled out of his slumber by a sharp knock on his front door.He placed a hand on his heart to slow down the fear that had spiked.The intercom went alive and Jimin spotted Taehyung at his threshold,visibly distressed.This was not something Jimin thought he would ever wake up to,he had broken up with Taehyung weeks ago on amiable terms.They had sat down and decided that they would never work out and parted ways.Jimin's eyebrows knitted together in confusion,as he twisted the door knob.The moment ,the door opened, Taehyung was upon him.Hugging Jimin tight,a hand coming around the elder's back and the other on the back of his head.

"Taehyung-",Jimin's voice was muffled into the cotton pyjamas that the younger adorned and Jimin realized that Taehyung really had been in a hurry and from the way his heart was beating heavily against Jimin's ears,the boy was indeed scared.

Taehyung withdrew,cupping Jimin's face between his large hands.
"Taehyung,what are you doing here?What's wrong?"
"I..you are really here..you are here"
"Ofcourse I am..Tae,what-"

Taehyung cut him off by pulling the shorter one for another hug,this time Taehyung's heartbeat seems to have slowed down and breath had evened out.
"I..I thought I lost you"

Jimin pressed a hand over the younger's chest and pushed him just enough to see his face,not enough for Taehyung to feel abandoned.
"But you did,Taehyung"

The ticking of clock sounded loud in the void, Taehyung felt like a fool to have run across the blocks with mismatched shoes and unbuttoned jacket.He was barely presentable and looked like a mad man,standing infront of his ex's house at some twilight hour.
"I..", Taehyung sounded unsure of what to say,the reality dawning on him slowly.He gulped,"I had a dream..a nightmare,something-",He closed his eyes for a moment as the memories came rushing down,"something happened to you and I couldn't...I couldn't save you,you were gone"

Jimin clearly looked out of place,he wasn't sure if he should be comforting Taehyung or sending him back.Comforting Taehyung sounded like a mockery to himself because what was he supposed to comfort him with? That 'I'm still here' or 'you still have me'?
"Taehyung,I am okay.Do you want to come in and wait? I can book a cab for you back",Jimin said as he turned to walk back into his living room only to be stopped by Taehyung.He had caught his wrist.
"I wasn't ready to say goodbye",His voice came in a low whisper and Jimin almost wanted to ask him again.

Jimin looked down at the grip Taehyung had over his wrist and smiled sadly,"but you did"
Silence fell into the space between them as Jimin slowly detached his hand,"I'll book you a cab",he repeated.
"Jimin..please-", Taehyung began and Jimin sighed heavily like he was busy building his walls back up before talking to Taehyung.
"Please what, Taehyung? Why are you doing this to me?"
"I made a mistake..I was scared-"

"You made a mistake?!! Tae,I let you go because you wanted it.I put you before me and my broken heart so you could be happy.I said okay because to me,you mattered more than anything and if am holding you back from being happy,I will never be able to forgive myself.I loved you so much that I had to let you go and now when am picking up my pieces ,you can't!! You can't just barge in say it was a mistake",Jimin's tears had no shame,they were already betraying him.

Jimin took a step forward,a finger pointed to Taehyung's heart and continued in his unsteady voice,"I sat in that coffee shop hours after you left, looking at the door hoping you'd walk back in..I sat there in fear that if you did come back,you do not miss me..If..If you weren't ready to say goodbye,why..",quite sobs erupted off the shorter as he fisted his hand and placed it gently on top of Taehyung's heart.Taehyung wrapped his own hand around the small ones.Taehyung had kissed Jimin one last time on his cheeks and left without looking back.He had cried all the way back to his apartment cause he had left his heart back at that small cafe.A regular cafe they frequented only for it to be traumatic now.

"I was scared,scared of getting closer to you..you were becoming my everything,my breath,my life,the meaning of my very existence and that scared me..I would not be able to forgive myself if I ever hurted you,And I..All I do is drive people away,all I do is be scared of relationships cause if I mess up..If I do,I'll lose you forever and I would not be able to ever fix it"
"So you decided to run even before it fell into ruins?"
"Jimin,I-"
"It's funny how you say you were scared that you'd hurt me and that's what you did exactly,Tae..I am trying to make sense"

Taehyung fell silent and watched as Jimin's hand slipped out.He walked back to the couch and sat there. Taehyung knelt infront of him.
"I am just so stupid..I am so sorry,Jimin...I was dying since I walked away..I cannot live without you and I wanted to come back everyday,from the moment I left ...Jimin,When I had that nightmare...I was scared..what if I am too late..What if my fcking insecurity messed it up..what if I lost the only good thing in my life"

Taehyung brought his hands up to cup Jimin's face,bringing his eyes to lock with his.
"Jimin"
"Mm?"
"Am I too late?"

Jimin closed his eyes,sending few more stray tears and sighed,"I am still wearing your shirt,you tell me"

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a/n:hope you liked it..
ill eventually write all your requests but gimme some time..
also please try to mention the dialogue instead of number next time.