Vmin one Shots

Rest a bit

Jungkook's girlfriend,So min, actually took off in a run before her boyfriend could even park the car properly.Jungkook caught upto her soon as she waited for the damned elevator and even when they got in,it wasn't fast enough.Jungkook exchanged a glance with her in the silence and So min nodded him a reassurance,not really sure about it herself .When the ding came and elevator halted onto the 9th floor,both of them bolted right to the end of the  corridor.So min stood aside as Jungkook typed in the code to open the door and So min's heart broke to the cry coming from inside.The door swung open and Jungkook immediately shouted into the room,"Taehyungie hyung-..."
The apartment was drenched in darkness,curtains pulled close and no lights turned on.
"Get seola,I'll check on hyung",Jungkook told his girlfriend before making his way to the bedroom,things laid everywhere on the floor and it was clear Taehyung had had a mental breakdown.The glasses were scattered on the floor,photos thrown over them,the beautiful vases were just shards now.Jungkook called out to Taehyung again as he made his way through the mess and pushed the door open.Jungkook could have gotten almost fooled that the room was vacant but then his eyes fell onto a small bundle at the foot of the bed.Somewhere from inside the house,little Seola's crying had seized and Jungkook let out a relieved sigh that So min had found her.

"Hyung-..",Jungkook stepped forward cautiously but the figure didn't move.He lowered himself over the blankets and pillows thrown astray and called again,a hand coming up to place over Taehyung's hand.Taehyung flinched and gasped before raising his head,he squinted his eyes in the darkness trying to recognize the person.
"It's me, Jungkookie",Jungkook said as he waited for his hyung's senses to fall into it's place and Taehyung's eyes slowly changed,hope turning into pain,despair and agony and Jungkook hated it.Jungkook hated that he couldn't help him,Jungkook hated how he believed that Taehyung would have been alright by now.Cause it was over a month now and he was supposed to be alright,atleast for the sake of his daughter.Jungkook should have atleast doubted when he knew Taehyung hadn't worked for two days but the elder had told him he was just sick,he should have taken a detour and checked in personally.He shouldn't have waited for Taehyung's neighbours to call him up saying they heard glasses breaking and Seola's painful wailing.
"I thought he came back", Taehyung said as he tipped his head forward,a tear immediately escaping him as his hands groped over the floor for something.Jungkook sighed heavily and pulled his hyung onto his shoulder.He could  hear So min cooing at Seola,trying to calm her down.
"Did You and Seola eat anything at all?"
Taehyung doesn't necessarily reply but Jungkook could sense and he hoped that So min get the little one something atleast.He dragged a hand over Taehyung's shoulder, squeezing it and patting lightly.
"What happened?", Jungkook's voice was low,almost soft on edges and Taehyung wanted to cry some more.
"It's ...it's our..our anniversary", Taehyung gaspsed a breath,a painful one before continuing,"all..those memories-it ..it just"
Jungkook's hand on Taehyung's shoulder tightened,"Hyung-..am sorry but ..but he is gone..you have to accept it"
"He might come back..this could be a dream", Taehyung doesn't miss a beat.
"Look at me,Hyung.I'm sorry for what happened but look at you,at Seola..why are you inflicting pain on yourself..You have to pull it together"
"I ..", Taehyung swallowed,"I can't..I want him,need him back by my side..I need him, Jungkook"
"Hyung.."
"He promised,he said he will be here with me...he..he was supposed to be here..he fcking lied", Taehyung turned to grip on Jungkook's shirt and sobbed loudly,breaks in breath coming out wrenching his heart.
"Jungkook.. Jungkook.,I can't...am scared,am alone..I dont know what to do..this home,it feels empty,the walls are empty.There's no life here.. and it scares me..how can I turn it back,Jungkookaah", Taehyung cried,spilling more tears onto the younger's shirt and Jungkook bit his lips,eyes furrowed,not knowing what to even say.He turned around to the door to see Seola in his girlfriend's arms,lightly dozzing off but her eyes scanning her father.So min gave a light nod before disappearing from the threashold.Taehyung was shaking too much,his face still pressed onto Jungkook's shirt,"Take Seola with you ...please.I don't know what to do,Take my baby with you,please.."
"Hyung,You are coming with us..Get up",Jungkook pulled back and urged Taehyung and the elder hung his head.
"Come on,Let's stay away from here a bit", Taehyung heard Jungkook say and he wanted to resist but his body was too weak.
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"Guilty", Taehyung found the right word,"I feel the survivor's guilt,he was supposed to be by my side.We were supposed to grow old together now...now he will be young forever", Taehyung was actually surprised that he didn't break down in sobs,yes thin lines of tears did wind past his cheeks but he had it together.His eyes left Namjoon and focused onto his daughter on the floor,twisting the blocks and biting them.His emotions were numb,he wanted to scold her to not put the toys in her mouth but he didn't have enough strength.
"Taehyung,I understand..But you need to live past it..Atleast for Seola..You are hurting yourself.I know how it is,how it feels to live on after your loved one is -",Namjoon stopped not really sure if he should say the word "dead" cause even as he comforted Taehyung,it's not something he had come into terms with himself.But the call Taehyung made when it happened still resonated in his head crying over his husband's demise.Cause Jimin,Jimin can't just be gone.Jimin was literally a hope ,he was an angel like Taehyung called him,a light of their own and he can't just be gone.Not on a Christmas Eve,cold and freezing by the sidewalk,not when his beloved husband and daughter waited for him , tiring out cooking the best he can.Not when it had only been few months since they adopted and he still had lot of things to do with their daughter even as arguing over which one of her fathers would go for her first dad-daughter dance.Jimin can't just be gone but he did and Namjoon had to settle for the word "gone" instead of "dead"
"-gone,life makes you guilty ofcourse.If you are allowed to ever forget and live past the memories or if it is only fair to wallow in them cause that makes us feel like they are still here",Namjoon always was the intellectual one,he always had insightful things to say.Taehyung looked up at Namjoon,"I don't want to live past him" and Namjoon understood that.
"We only started", Taehyung said and then he went silent and Namjoon knows the pain his little ones had gone through,he knows the unfairness in Taehyung's voice.It is indeed unfair,they only started to live,it was too early to get it snatched.

But despite his words, Taehyung stayed.He stayed for his daughter but still doesn't give away his memories either,kept hurting himself,never getting over it cause that way he didn't have to feel guilty but he stayed.He went to Seola's first father-daughter dance with noone to argue or play cheap games with to decide.He waited with his daughter as her date picked her up for their prom.He jumped along with her when she got into University and later her dream job,he cried when he walked her down the aisle,and sat back on their old apartment where he made memories.Now finally alone.26 years and he didn't change a bit,he could just turn back and see Jimin, in a yellow apron, in the kitchen,walking around humming a happy tone as he made Taehyung's favourite dishes.The old man could look to his side and see Jimin dozzing off on a movie night that he wanted so much,he could look  by the window sill and see his soulmate calling for him to show an airplane flying past or watering his lillies,he could walk into their bedroom and see Jimin tucked in safely under the baby blue blankets,raising his head sleepily to beckon Taehyung towards him.

Taehyung walks in and sits on the side of the bed,glancing down at his young husband,he was indeed young forever.
"Come to bed,you can rest for a while now",Jimin says and Taehyung happily obliges by laying down next to him.The younger brings a hand to slowly slide his thumb across Jimin's face,"I missed you"
"I missed you too",Sweet smile.The prettiest,Jimin shifts closer and closes his eyes,"Let's go to sleep.I am tired too"
"Goodnight angel", Taehyung says before closing his eyes.

And that's how Jin finds Taehyung the next day when he came for the golf game they had planned.Rolled to his sides,a hand extending over to the pillow next to him ,cold and life less.

a/n: you can dump your tears here