Vmin one Shots

"why did you spare me?"

a/n: request for hard angst done by VminSoulsxoxo
tw since it's hard angst

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The wind blows through silver hair as the man stared into the sea.He had been standing there for hours and Jungkook contemplated if he should go and relieve him of his trance but his own grief stops him.
"We need to go home",Yoongi tells him from his far right and Jungkook hums back a response.They should all go home before the clouds on the western skies reach them,before it rains over the ashes that floats away.Jungkook's legs stumbles a little as he made his way to the shore,the rest of them moving to their cars.The wind had started to blow quick,a greater effort to bring the clouds close.

"Jimin hyung",Jungkook starts unsure but the man doesn't turn around.Jungkook doesn't get irritated, instead he thinks the wind muffled his voice.He hesitantly reaches a hand over to touch Jimin's arm.
The latter turns around,his eyes a dead set memory of forlorn tears and redness.

"It is going to rain,everyone is leaving",Jungkook says and Jimin turns back to the sea.For a moment,the younger thinks Jimin is going to ignore him but then a rusty tired voice spoke,"I want to stay with him..a little longer"

And Jungkook understands that,he wanted to stay a little longer too but Jungkook's love was never acknowledged or known.He wasn't the one Taehyung held to sleep or pressed kisses.Jungkook wasn't the one Taehyung loved,It was always Jimin.Jungkook had learnt that truth years ago and had suppressed his emotions far beneath his cold exterior.

Jungkook goes silent for a while and Jimin reaches for him.The boy freeze for a moment because this was the first time,Jimin ever directly acknowledged him.
"You do not have to hold back from mourning.You do not have to think about hurting my feelings while you're hurt yourself",Jimin slowly says,a low hum against the passing wind.Jungkook tilts his head,his heart cracking a little.Jungkook had stood on the very sand, confessing and hoping Taehyung would say yes.But Taehyung only knelt with him to say that he had someone he loved dearly,already.He had promised that if Jimin never came into his life,he could given the younger a chance.Jungkook had stood on this very sand when he watched Jimin kiss Taehyung,as they fell over.Their laughter carried over to the horizon to kiss the setting sun.

Jungkook was hurt,he would always be hurt but this was just a chapter of his book.To Jimin,this was his whole book so Jungkook doesn't cry.
The rain slowly showers over their head,shy at first and picking up speed slowly.Jimin doens't run to shelter,instead his leg bends and he kneels.

Jungkook looks up,the sun had died under the storm and thunder bolted somewhere far.Jimin's voice was loud now,a dwindling effort to talk over the pouring rain.
"He should have loved you instead.I was sure to bring him doom.I was sure to ruin him.He never listened.You should have taken him away from me",Jimin rambles and Jungkook doesn't completely understand but he wouldn't ever have pulled Taehyung away from Jimin.At the end of everything,both Jimin and he would save Taehyung's happiness.Taehyung's happiness was Jimin and how in the world would Jungkook take that away from him.

Jungkook sits beside Jimin,legs pulled over the damp shore to fold under him.
"I could not have.You wouldn't have let me,He wouldn't have let me.And..and even I would feel guilty-"
"Next life,Jungkook..Next life,take him..",Jimin falls forward to cover his face.To this Jungkook laughs,a painful laugh.

"You are a fool,hyung",He says.The ashes had sunk into the deep end and now they could not even spot where,if they tried.
Jungkook continues,"Have you not seen the way his eyes lighting up when you walk into the room? Have you not seen his lips twist into that sweet smile whenever he reads a text from you? Have you not seen the way his eyes change when he sees you,like he is gazing at a star..I fell in love with him and watched him fall in love with you..In any life,he would only love you"

Jungkook had always thought when he says it out loud,it would break him.It would be hard but right now,it doesn't feel so.Instead a relief washed over him to finally accept and say it out loud.Beside him, Jimin's sobs becomes louder.He wails,hiccuping Taehyung's name,"What would I do without you? why did you spare me?",He asks.

Jungkook's hand pats Jimin as the elder cried on.The rain seized,there was silence.Noone around and even the sea fell into it.Sun slowly peaks out,ready to die it's second death of the day by the horizon.Jungkook raises and leaves Jimin to himself,he would not able to give him any comfort.He would not be able to say words he needed to hear himself.Even then,he felt cruel because although Jungkook did love Taehyung, Taehyung never loved him back.

He never had been at the recieving end of Taehyung's touches,he wouldn't know how it would feel to miss those.The kisses,the skin on skin,low baritone whispers,those longing glance across the room.Jungkook will heal but Jimin won't.Jimin will carry his pieces to the end of the days and Jungkook felt cruel.

But he knew that Jimin would have it in him to forgive him.Jimin would not even notice the absence of the younger.Jimin would only be hearing Taehyung's whispers in the silence.

a/n:hope you liked it.i had not been feeling well for few days now.my cat died today as well,so yeah..

i hope you guys like this one shot btw.