Infected
Sometimes we really have to acknowledge what we feel, no matter how hard it is. Trying to forget things that traumatized us only makes things worse for us; we pass the burden on to someone, and we unintentionally hurt people because we don't acknowledge our own emotions.
Acknowledging our emotions can be difficult, but it is necessary for healing and growth.
But we also have to understand that hurting someone unintentionally-passing the burden to someone-is somehow a traumatic response for most of us.
What you felt is valid. Your trauma doesn't make you stronger, but it is the root of your unknown behavior. You are a complex and multifaceted individual with many experiences, emotions, and qualities that make up your identity. While trauma can have a significant impact on your life, it still doesn't define you or limit your potential for growth and healing.
Acknowledging the impact of trauma and seeking support to work through it, but remember that you are not alone and that there is hope for a brighter future. With time, patience, and self-care, you can learn to overcome the effects of trauma and live a fulfilling life, but sometimes you really have to learn the hard way.
It may have taken a long time—months and years—but every scar that bleeds you along the way will never define who you are. It was and is still a tiny part of you, so keep moving forward.
Pagkatapos kong matulungan ang isa sa mga pasahero sa paglagay ng kaniyang gamit ay tinulungan ko naman ang iba pang mga pasahero na kailangan iassist. Matamis akong ngumiti sa kanila. I have a 12 hours and 19 minutes flight. Sa Germany ang flight ko ngayon. Ngayon pa lang ay ngalay na paa ko!
After a long flight, we stayed in one of the hotels in Berlin. Bukas ng umaga ang balik namin sa Manila.
Katulad ng nakasanayan ay marami ulit akong biniling pasalubong para sa kanya. Isang linggo ko na siya hindi nadadalaw dahil naging abala talaga ako sa trabaho. Lagi pang labas ng Asia ang flight ko. Nakaraan araw ay sa Maldives ang flight ko. Mahaba-haba rin iyon at nakakangalay!
Pero masaya ako sa trabaho ko. Pangarap ko ito kaya ayos lang din!
Pagod galing trabaho ay sa kaniya agad ako dumiretso. Diniretso ko ang sasakyan ko sa presinto.
My forehead creased when I saw an ambulance, and my heart dropped when I saw who it was. Dali-dali akong lumabas ng sasakyan ko. It was Sylas! He is unconscious, and he's bleeding!
''A-Ano pong nangyari?''
''Nagkaroon ng rambulan sa loob ng kulungan. Sinaksak siya ng isa sa mga preso.'' pagkarinig ko noon ay agad akong sumakay sa Ambulansya.
Hinawakan ko ang kamay niya habang nag uunahan ang mga luha ko sa pagbagsak. Tumingin ako sa Nurse. ''He's gonna be fine, right?''
''Hindi naman malalim ang saksak sa kaniya, nawalan lang siya ng malay.''
Pagkatapos magamot ng doctor ang sugat niya. I stayed there for a couple of hours. He was still unconscious, and then my eyes drifted to his back. I slowly raised his shirt, only to see plenty of scars there. My hand immediately flowed back to my mouth. Tears flowed from my cheeks.
Bumuhos ang mga luha ko.
Agad kong pinunasan ang mga luha ko nang dinilat niya ang kanyang mga mata. Ngumiti ako sa kanya. At ganun din siya. Kapwa kami nakangiti sa isa't isa. Muling lumandas ang mga luha ko.
''I'm sorry for making you worried, Mila.'' pinunasan niya ang luha ko. ''I love you, stop crying, baby. Okay lang ako.''
''Akala ko kung napano ka na! Paano kung malala pa ang mangyari sa'yo sa susunod!''
