Spencer Charnas One Shots

English Thing and Quick Update

hi yall. so its gonna be a busy two weeks. this week are my finals and next week is graduation and senior things and all that. so I most likely wont be updating for a bit unless I get on a spree

this summer I'll have a job but I promise I'll update. it might take a bit, but im not giving up on my books now that I'm an "adult".

anywhore, I wrote this thing in english so yall can read it if u want. it was my final project. I like it.

so bear with me here, we're almost in the clear. I love you all and if you want more updates, try reading my other books! they arent as recent but yk

enjoy this mess (also the final draft was not this version)

- sil
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Farewell. I know this seems sudden, with all the life I've come to experience. When they ask how I am, I reply, "not bad." I lay awake at night, dreaming of being. I've been drifting for so long, like a lead that is being blown away in the wind. I wish there was an easier way to do this. I never thought I would wish to be this way, I never thought I'd get this far. I wouldn't want this to happen to anyone else. It's been far too long. So, farewell, my friend. Farewell to suicide.

Farewell to the hardships and farewell to the rock bottom. Life is death and death is life. The hardships will come, the bad days will show up. The bad days will sneak up on you, they'll attack you like a lion attacking it's prey. You have to fight back, though. Even if you think you can't, remember you can. You may walk away with cuts and bruises and scrapes. But remember that the lion will be injured as well.

Farewell to being lonely. The world may seem empty, alone. But the eyes of Mother Nature are watching over you. She may be cruel at times, but she will bring the right person to you. The right person with those eyes, those lips, those hands. With the personality that is out of this world; the compassion that is stronger than the King's personal Knight.

Saying hello is a breath of fresh air. Take in the flowers. Listen to the birds. Admire the colors you haven't seen before. Take in the blues and yellows and greens and reds. It's okay to imagine yourself falling into a cloud. A cloud of love. A cloud of passion. A cloud where you know you will be safe. Hold that feeling close. Hold your loved one even closer.

Farewell to searching. Say hello to the love that has come into your life. Hold them close and appreciate the way they appreciate you. The new love found every time you kiss. The sparkle in your eyes as you watch him come into your house. The shine of his pearly white teeth and the skin complexion of a baby's bottom. You never have to ask if they love you because you know they do with how much they pour their kind-hearted soul onto you.

At this time, in this place, I accept the fact I want to be alive. I want to live with him for the rest of my life. And if it ends tomorrow, I want him to know that he gave me peace, happiness. The way he says my name wants me to be alive. My body doesn't fight, my hands cannot pick up those pills, that razor, that knife. I know Mother Nature is calling for me to be on this earth.

Farewell to suicide.