The Crazy Adventure We Will Never Embark Upon

The Mindworker's Thoughts

(MADHULIKA'S POV)

I can't control my dreams. Even if I could, I dont think I want to change them, because lately I've been dreaming about him. It's quite strange actually.

I've noticed, ever since I've joined the Circle, my time is always taken up by Sebastian. Honestly he's still such a mystery. I remember when I first saw him. I'd accidently bumped into him, and he'd done the cool eyebrow thing. Back then he was just a hot guy, now, well I don't know.

He is always leaning against the wall, quietly observing, even though he has such great leadership skills. He is calm, collected, direct, level headed, patient, all the qualities of a leader, yet he perfers to observe. I always wonder why. He is always with the Vampires, from the looks of it, he is a preson they respect, but he never says much. Odd isn't it? But the most peculiar thing is, he is always observing me. I've tried so many times to read him, to understand why he does it, but he alway has his walls up.

In the end, he still remains a mystery to me. He hardly says much, he only opens up to Nicolas and the others. Bu teven this is somewhat of a rare sight. I don't think many people notice, but there is such saddnes in his eyes. I've always wanted to know why. The reason why he stays in the background, why he doesn't smile often? Normally, I'd find such thing strange, but with this guy, I want to know why.

It's not like he is a emo or goth. He is just like a normal teen, except he is much more reserved. Not like Nicolas, cold and emotionless but calm and sensitive. Other don't notice his senstive nature, but I do. Not senstive as in he'll enjoy a chic flick (I think he'll just get up and leave)but senstive as in, he understands and comphrends the situation a lot more maturely than any of us.

He is pretty cool too. He has good looks and the mysterious aura going for him. I can see that many girl like him, he doesn't show much interest in them though. Most people stay clear of him, but I don't think he is the kind of guy to pick fights. Unless of course you touch his percious bike. (A harley Davison, God I've always wanted one). And when he does talk, he slays like a boss. He delivers some of the clever dialogues.

However he keeps to himself and doesn't talk to me much, but it seems like he is always attentive and guarded. I feel safe with him, I suppose. Not like I need a bodyguard but it feels nice to know someone is there for you. Some people think he is conceted because he ignores them, when really he just doesn't talk much. How someone call such a guy a monster? Just beacuse he was born a Vampire? He didn't chose who be is, no one can. How can Anannya of all people say this?

Lately she keeps on talking bullshit like consparacies and murders. I tired to ask her but she just keeps on blabbling bullshit like everyone here is a monster and what not. I tried to explain it to her but she just won't listen. Moreover she keeps on dissing Sebastian. I don't get it, what did he do. When I ask her, she says he plans to kill me. Why in the world would he do that? But she claims she has heard it form Sebadtian himself.

But lately, I've been thinking, what if Anannya is right? What if things aren't as they seem. My instincts tell me, no. And when you're a psychic, you should listen to your guts. But if, Anannya is wrong, what made her come to this conclusion? That chic is starting to worry me. What the hell happen Anannya?