The inner workings of my mind

Distance

Tears threatening to spill out of my eyes as yours fades away into the distance

My heart screams don't leave and to stay in my arms until the day we die

But my head knows that I can't tell you that with fear of pushing you away like I do to everyone I care for

I'm scared

Mainly because you're my happy place

As you leave my mind instantly resorts to the awful thoughts I pray to get rid of

Only the safety of your arms and soft kisses erase everything and makes me feel safe

Long distance was never my intention

So as you wave with promises of returning to me my insecurities push their way in like a wave crashing into rocks on the shore

What if he finds someone better

Or prettier

Or thinner than I could ever be...

I've had this battle constantly with fear that one day you would leave and no amount of trust and love I have can prevent it

So I know that someone being so far away for months on end can't be easy but I'm willing to try as long as you are

My love for you will go the distance...can we make it?

—Arri—