The inner workings of my mind

Secrets

You hold the biggest ones of all expecting them not to be exposed

holding your breath and believing you took every precaution possible

These secrets come out and you can't change that

friendships destroyed

mask ripped off the face of an imposter

Hearts broken after realizing there was nothing they could do

If you could would you stop yourself from knowing what you know? Or go back and change the decisions that you made?

I was an open book from the very beginning but you only cracked yours expecting me to accept it

I poured out my heart and was forced to watch as you sucked the life out of it like a vampire

YOU DESTROYED ME AND NOW YOU'RE MAD?

YOU HURT ME BUT NOW EXPECT THINGS TO REMAIN THE SAME

I refuse to allow you to continue to have this grasp you hold on my now stone cold body

The summer sun cant reverse the emotion I felt when I was told your secret

dragging myself back and forth inside my room no longer having the will to physically walk

The worst part about knowing this is that I would never hurt you by exposing this to the world

I'm forced to sit here and hear all the rumors you spread making me look like the evil villain in your shitty disney story

I was naive to believe you were meant for me 

These words circle in my head and screaming let it out

My heart of gold and forgiveness refuses to hurt you the way you hurt me

I break down in tears in secret while you.....

               ~ Arri~