Pacing back and forth between tired and cheerfulness is more draining than most know
Working all day for little as reward is both mentally and physically exhausting
But all the days dragging yourself back and forth to put on a smile for those around you seems to never end
So as you stand in a room full of people that claim they know you and attempt to let your feelings out, they brush it off
As if you can't be sad, you're the one that holds everyone together, you have to be the nice one
Your fate was signed since you were just a kid and growing up life has never changed
you have to be patient when all you want to do is yell that you can't take the pain and anger from everyone around you
you need a break?
How can you possibly get that when you must mediate every argument and be a therapist to those you love
not that you wouldn't do it anyways, it's just that some days are harder for you to handle and you can't cope with it
other days you feel completely alone without a single phone call or text to rant about the things they endure
But you remain silent and repeat this never ending cycle to afraid to open up but more terrified about letting out all the years of pain
But how can you escape your destiny now when you've come so far right? so grab a paint brush and draw on that beautiful smile and practice that melody like laugh to prepare for the next day
~ARRI~
YOU ARE READING
The inner workings of my mind
Poésiethis is where i decided to place my poems seeing as though i tend to write a lot of them...lol so i hope you guys enjoy
