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I try so hard but it seems as if my thoughts stop me from doing the things I've always wanted
Life somehow passes me by each day and I can only hope to eventually live it
Every moment that I didn't do something I wanted comes to slap me in the face like a pile of bricks
How do I remedy this?
What can I do to stop myself from my own demise...and how did I get here in the first place..
It's not about finding someone to love me
because I have that
It's not about wanting something so badly but find yourself wondering where to start
No, I did the work and I struggled night and day to try and accomplish my goals, but this next part, I'm scared
What if I don't succeed and everything around me starts to crumble
My mind can't focus no matter how hard I try to force it to
It constantly wanders into the depressive state making me feel lost and out of control
" I can't do it " are words that my brain repeats the second I feel as if I'm ready
" What if I'm not good enough?" Is the question ringing inside of my head every time the person I've come to know and love looks at me adoringly
" maybe I should try again later " but how can I possibly postpone the feeling of failure I feel once my procrastination starts to kick in
How can I possibly reassure others when I have no clue what to do with my own mind?
Finding myself stuck in a constant daze watching familiar faces pass by without so much as a second glance
Maybe due to the fact that when my chances appeared out of thin air I said no
To afraid to take chances at what the yes to those situations mean
I need to find a way to take control of my mind before I loose it all together, before I reach the point where I can't get myself out of my stupid thoughts
~ARRI~
YOU ARE READING
The inner workings of my mind
Poesiathis is where i decided to place my poems seeing as though i tend to write a lot of them...lol so i hope you guys enjoy
