𝖉𝖆𝖞𝖑𝖎𝖌𝖍𝖙~𝖕𝖊𝖙𝖊𝖗 𝖕𝖆𝖗𝖐𝖊𝖗 𝖝 𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖉𝖊𝖗

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𝖎 𝖈𝖔𝖚𝖑𝖉𝖓'𝖙 𝖇𝖗𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖒𝖞𝖘𝖊𝖑𝖋 𝖙𝖔 𝖌𝖔 𝖙𝖔 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖉𝖔𝖈𝖐 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖍 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖗𝖊𝖘𝖙 𝖔𝖋 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖙𝖊𝖆𝖒. i trudged down the ramp first with slumped shoulders and a tear-stained face. my mind was hazed but i eventually found myself at her door. the familiar wooden door i had found solace behind for months after the blip. i slipped inside and was hit by the comforting smell of the candles that she had kept in here. my back hit the door as i looked around the room before my knees gave out and i slid down to the floor.

tears spilled from my eyes as i looked around the dark room. the bed was made neatly and the book she had been reading was laid on the bedside table still open. she said she had lost her bookmark so she just left it open there. it was so bare in here without her.

just from the look on clint's face i knew we couldn't get her back even with the stones. she was gone. she was truly gone. there would be no more peanut butter sandwiches or being drug into avengers meetings. no more hugs or reassuring words. just a bare room that held her memory.

how many more of us would fall?

i don't know when i stood up from the carpeted floor. i don't know if it had been minutes or hours but i found myself opening the blinds to her window allowing the light to pour into the dim room. below i could see the rest of the team sulking by the lake behind the compound.steve had a protective arm around juno as she hugged him close to her. thor and tony were shouting. then bruce threw a bench over into the woods across the water. i stepped away soon after that. i turned as a glimmer caught in the corner of my eye. her closet door was cracked open slightly and the color of a red ribbon could be seen inside. it sat on top of a black box neatly and against my better judgment, i stepped forward curious as to what it was. i cracked the door open more with shakey hands to find the rectangular box sitting on the floor of her closet innocently. a small card on top is what caught my attention more.

for juno,

then it hit me, it was her birthday present. her birthday was coming up in a few months and i guess natasha had gotten her something in advance as she always had. i flipped the card over to read her neat handwriting again.

i thought it was time you get to be a hero too.

p.s don't let your mom kill me for this

- love, aunt nat nat

i opened the box carefully curious as to what she had meant. past the red tissue paper was a folded black and gold suit similar to my own. my breath hitched in my throat at the sight of it and the box slipped from my fingers back to the floor. she had talked to me about it a year ago, she wanted to know how i felt about juno going out there with us. i had shot it down then, claiming she was too young but all nat saw was my fear. she knew how it all had turned out for me. she knew i didn't want the same for her too.