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Eating Disorder

This was requested
Trigger warning seen in the title
TW: emetophobia might be triggered
Scarlet is 13 here

Scarlet was hovering over a toilet in the girl lavatories. This was a part of her daily routine. It had all started a few months back, when she noticed her school uniform skirt became tighter and tighter by the day. Once she had realised that, she wanted to change that as fast as possible. She felt uncomfortable in her own body, that feeling increasing whenever she saw another girl with a flat stomach.

For the fastest effect, the girl stopped eating completely. The problem was that once she had lost the previously gained weight again, she couldn't bring herself to relearn her old eating habits. Every time she tried to eat something, once she swallowed, she felt like she could literally feel the food go down towards her stomach and the fat bloating her hips. Then, she would have to run to the bathroom to throw up. This was the way it always went and what lead her to this exact moment.

She heard a slight knock on the stall door and soon she heard the voice of Hermione Granger, a good friend of hers.

"Are you okay in there, Scarlet?" the brunette asked worriedly.

"Yes, I'm fine. I must've eaten something bad, but it's okay. I'll be out in a bit, don't bother waiting for me." She replied, hoping her friend would go away.

"Stop lying Scarlet. You don't eat enough to have food poisoning. You hardly eat anything at all. Please, let me in, I can help you." She begged the girl.

"You can't help me Mione, I'm already broken. I tried so many times and yet I still fail. Nothing can help me. Go away, I have other things to worry about. This isn't the first time, I can handle it." And with a deep sigh, Hermione Granger left the bathroom.

Once the door had closed, Scarlet broke down.

Why is life so hard?
Why am I like this?
Everyone can eat normally without throwing up afterwards, why can't I just be normal?

She thought whilst leaning against the door and silently sobbing. She didn't need any attention right now.

She had enough worries without half the school knowing that Scarlet Lupin-Black had an eating disorder.

Right now, Scarlet had an even bigger problem: she had to get home for summer very soon. She didn't want her fathers to know about her eating disorder, she felt ashamed of herself. The witch had to think of something quickly.

Unfortunately, the day of the return to their homes came earlier than she had expected, which was not good at all, as she still had no idea for covering up her illness.

Even the usually very long and boring train ride went by very quickly, but still didn't provide the young witch with any good ideas. Scarlets heart was beating so fast when it was time to descend the Hogwarts express, you could think that she had just ran a marathon. Her hands were sweating and her breathing was uneven. She quickly rubbed her hands on her shirts and steadied her breath before going towards her dads. They were standing with Lily and James, like always.

Although she grew up with Harry, they weren't together all of the time. They both had their separate groups of friends. The two got along pretty well though.

She slowly ran towards her fathers, not having enough energy to speed up, and engulfed them in a hug. She noticed Lily had given her a look she couldn't identify, but the normally curious girl just shrugged it off.

"Let's get home now, shall we." Remus said after the small family had bid their goodbyes to the Potters. He stretched his arm for Scarlet to take, which she did and so, the Lupin-Blacks apparated to their cottage.

"You must be starving, little Star. Come on, wash your hands and dinner will be served in the dining room." Sirius said once they had stepped in the house.

His daughter complied, her worry growing by the second. When she was sitting at the table, she was shaking. Her fear increased once she saw what was for dinner.

"To celebrate your return from Hogwarts we thought we'd get some pizza." Sirius explained, not knowing that it was one of her fear foods.

"I'm not that hungry, I had a lot of sweets on the ride back. I'm tired too, I'll just go upstairs. Good night." She explained, hoping that it would get her out of the current situation.

"That's okay, little star. Just make sure to eat enough tomorrow, we don't want you to have no energy. Good night." Remus smiled.

The next morning, Scarlet woke up from the smell of toast. She knew that breakfast must be ready soon, so she quickly got ready before descending the stairs and going into the kitchen, where Sirius stood with a chef hat and an apron, garnishing three plates of avocado toast.

The girl wanted to get it over with, so she grabbed a plate from the kitchen counter and sat down at the table in the dining room with it, Remus und Sirius soon joining her.

She tried to concentrate on the conversation her dads had whilst biting her toast and she tried not to throw up. Once she swallowed two bites of the bread, she already waited for the gagging to start, however, it never came.

"So proud of you, Scarlet." Remus said. Hermione Granger had written to him about the girls eating habits a few weeks prior, after the incident in the bathroom. "Can you take another bite for me, please?" He asked her softly, hoping that it would be better.

She was still wondering how he knew about the disorder, but took a bite anyways. It worked again, however Scarlet felt very uncomfortable now.

"I'm not hungry anymore. I'm scared that I'll throw up if I take another bite." She told them, looking at the floor with embarrassment.

"It's okay, honey. We're very proud of you. You don't have to eat a lot, just make sure to eat something. We really don't want you to get ill." Sirius said whilst pulling her into a hug, which she immediately returned.

"Thank you." she simply whispered.

The next few weeks went a lot better for the girl. She had someone who loved her no matter how she looked. Her dads were very patient with her, so it wasn't as difficult to eat anymore. By the end of the summer, she was able to eat almost anything she wanted.

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Hi

I hope you enjoyed this chapter!

Make sure to eat and drink enough, fuck the beauty standards that society has decided on, you're beautiful just the way you are:)

Also a question

What house do you think Scarlet would be? I think anything but Slytherin could fit

love you to the moon and to Saturn

~L<3