IHPL 1: Kielandro Narcissuss Madrigal (Completed)

CHAPTER 17

A Bet Full Of Odds

"Constance?"

A familar voice blurting my name.

"Yeah right. Ikaw nga." He blurted ng makarating siya sa harapan ko.

Hindi ko maiwasang magulat. I can't contemplate myself feeling so suprised seeing this guy in front of me again, after those three years. Iniwas ko ang aking mga mata. Seeing him again just makes me feel, how shameful I am. I can't stop my body from turning and feeling cold.

I didn't expect na makikita ko pa siya ulit. Nor, expecting the fact of talking to him again.

"C-Cloud," hilaw kong ani.

Parang bumalik lang lahat ng alala ko noon ng makita ko siya. Lahat ng hiya, all my guilt. Everything was slowly coming back and invading my mind like some particles of snow.

"It's been three years..."

"Y-Yeah..."

To admit everything, he is one of those people who knows about my past occurrences. Isa siya sa mga taong, alam na alam ang nagawa ko noon.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit ang lakas ng loob kong humingi ng tulong at pabor sa pamilya ni Kileandro. Hindi ko mahapuhap 'yong rason do'n. Dahil ba alam kong walang alam ang pamilya ni Kielandro sa mga nangyari noon? 'Yon ba ang nagpapanatili sa 'king isantabi 'yong hiya. Is that the thing that letting me forget about the humiliation? Or am I just that desperate enough. Yeah. Ano panga ba ang ibang pinanghahawakan ko? Is there still another reason explaining why I am in this situation I am in now?

Maybe there is. Those people that I trust that until now they're making me keep my conviction, who are they?

"Tatlong taon na din- But those things you did before are still unforgivable." Mapakla siyang napangiti. I know that because my wrongdoings, hindi lang iisang tao ang apektado at naapektuhan, kung hindi napakarami. Those people that are close with Kielandro are deeply involved.

Hindi ko maiwasang mapayuko.

I don't have the rights to object him or to even say anything kahit sabihin na nating tatlong taon na ang nakakaraan. It's like an unhealing wound. Kahit ilang beses pang tahiin, patuloy pa din na bumubukas. One sorry is not enough for everything.

Walang kahit anong salita ang lumabas sa bibig ko. I can't find the right words to say. I've never expected to see him again.

I know I am at fault. If only I could heal this wounds... But no. How can I when the very start, all of us knows that U am the cause of it? Ginagawa ko bang tanga 'yong sarili ko? Am I making a joke out of myself? Out in this situation, in the first place, alam kong ako, at wala ng iba ang may sala. I am the root of their hatred. So how dare I, think about comforting and reassuring them?

"Nevermind. By the way, unusual as it is... It was suprising to find you setting foot in this place. Ano ba'ng ginagawa mo dito?" Sarkastiko niyang tanong.

I gathered up my strength to talk. I can't keep silent for the whole duration. Kailangan ko siyang sagutin. I am here now and hindi ako taga dito, isa pa... Mas makapangyarihan sila keysa sa'kin.

"I... I am here for Ms. Samantha." It took me my courage to spurt those words. Hindi padin ako sanay... The anxiety that it gives me when meeting those people i've hurt before. It's torturing me painlessly.