IHPL 1: Kielandro Narcissuss Madrigal (Completed)

CHAPTER 27

Memories of Alhambra

Selene looked for ways together with me. She helped me cook and do things that I supposedly need to do by myself. Sa totoo lang, even though ako ang nagtuturo sa kanya sa ginagawa namin parang ako pa ang mas natuto. Ako pa ang may nakukuha sa kanya. Specific details about their life since we talked so many things about them but personally it was Kielandro's life that really seize my intrest.

She also taught me life lessons the more our communication expanded, as we talked deeper. Sa mura niyang edad, napakadami na niyang alam, and all of it- her advices aren't incorrect. Hindi mali ang mga sinasabi niyang advice sa'kin, instead it's something to be put into action.

We can't really judge someone's knowledge and capabilities just because of their age and appearance. Sometimes we can see that they're more responsible and mature than us.

For the whole duration hindi siya umalis sa tabi ko at hands on talaga siya sa pagtulong saakin. Talagang naghanap pa nga siya sa internet ng mga pwede naming lutuin, nagbabakasakali na kakinin ito ng tito niya. To be honest, she made my work a lot more easier. She did a very great job on helping me. Kahit sa konting panahon palang naming magkakilala, she really became someone I can trust.

But even though with all of the hardships we fought, nothing seems to work out.

Here I am, knocking on Eshvan's door, secretly wishing that he would eat this food that me and Selene prepared.

Kahit sa tulong na natatanggap ko. Hindi ko maiwasang makaramdam ng pagka-down at makaisip ng mga negatibong bagay. Will this really work?

Panghuling araw na namin ito and as I can see, I haven't made any progress, sa totoo lang parang mas lumala lang nga ang sitwasyon.

I see that Eshvan body is slowly failing. Nag-iba ito kumpara noong una ko siyang makita, two days ago. His energy are slowly fading and leaving his body. Hindi na masyadong umeepekto ang dextrose sa kanya. His body needs something solid and something that can provide anything he needs.

To clearly explain everything, buti sana kong comatose siya, then it can settle it. But no, he's awake and consuming energy from time to time. That just states why he needs to eat something, solid foods and and more. Ang problema lang, he can't, even drinking is not an option for him. His food trauma triggers when he tries too.

I'm slowly losing hope.

Minsan na akong nagmatigas, kahit ilang pilit niya akong pinaalis. I just didn't care and stood for my decision. I watched him trying to eat, bahala na kong anong magiging reaksyon niya. In that way I can inspect more on what it does to his body and what reaction his body might conjure.

I can see his determination and perseverance.

He tried putting the food in his mouth and tried swallowing, but it just end up for him to puke.

Noong makita ko 'yon, that's when I started to have doubts. Kung kakayanin ko ba 'to, kung may patutunguhan ba talaga ang lahat na ito.

Kahit gustuhin ko mang sumuko, hindi ko kaya. Hindi ko kayang sukuan ang sinimulan ko.

It's because something grew in me.

I've grown closer to them, I've built something between them, kahit dalawang araw pa lang kaming magkakilala.

Love, acceptance and friendship from someone kahit hindi mo man kaano-ano. It's not easy to offer that thing to someone you doesn't even know well, but them? Heck. They're one of a kind. They showed me how good it felt being accepted, being loved. Eshvan and Selene.