Hope wasn't made for us

chapter 25- The Truth

Chapter 25

Ellie Pov

We kept driving till the truck stopped and i stared at the red E. 

"Well, that's it for gas, we are on foot from now on" I say getting out and Ryder did the same. I handed Ryder my gun since i didn't use it, and i really didn't know how. i mean i knew how but i wasn't very good.

"We need to look for food" i say making him follow me into the woods.

"Have you ever hunted before?" Ryder asked, a sigh left my lips before i spoke.

"yeah" i say "just look around, don't shoot unless i say so" i say making him laugh.  i looked him before he smirked

"i love it when your bossy" a flirty tone left his lips, i couldn't help but smile a bit.

"whatever" i try and hide my smile as i grabbed my crossbow. 

 I've never killed an animal before. Something about it made me ill. taking a life made me ill.

I spotted a rabbit. I ate a lot of those when i was with dean. just thinking about dean makes me ill. i need to see him, make sure hes okay. thats all i want.

I aimed the crossbow. I didn't know much on, but i was planning to learn.

I aimed at the rabbit, but it ran away, this haunting thing was harder than i thought it would be.

"Damnit" i say, i continued to walk, hoping to find something.

I stopped when I saw a deer half eaten. Must had been the biters. 

"Holy" i say covering my mouth, the smell of rotten meat entered my nose making me cringe, i heard a twig snap making me aim my crossbow but it was just Ryder making me sigh

"Alright so i got some fish" he smiled. i didn't even realize he wasn't behind me. 

"You weren't with me, this entire time?" i ask getting a little mad he ran off. i didn't want him to get hurt. i looked into his soft well resting eyes. wondering how that must have felt. i haven't been able to rest properly in months. i rested better knowing id wake up next to dean. Ryders features so soft, so untouched. but deans were broken and scared. 

"Um, were you just saying you missed me" he smirked drawing me out of my thoughts, i almost smiled at the nickname he always calls me, maybe i was wrong. maybe my feelings for Ryder are still here. 

..............................................

We camped out as we ate the fish. i almost missed the rabbit. it tasted better. 

"So how did you catch the fish?' i ask eating. i didn't know he knew how to fish. or catch one. 

"I came across this tent and it had a bucket of fish in it next to a chair, so I took one for me one for you" he answered making me look at him.

"Wait you stole the fish from someone else" I say in shock. 

"They weren't there, they were probably dead Ellie" he said making me look away, i couldn't believe he said that and just took someone else's food. You don't do that. Not even in a world like this. 

but he was right, they probably were dead, but me and Dean never took from others, and i learned my lesson when I did, and dean had to save me. 

I sighed and laid down to go to sleep, first time in a few days......i let my mind wonder as darkness took over.

"Happy birthday to you" my family sung.

"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Ellie, happy birthday to you" everybody sung as i stared at my pink birthday cake that had the number 10 on it