Bad For You (on going)

chapter thirty four : Daisy

"I don't know what you did...did to me.
Your body lightweight, speaks to me."
- Chris Brown

Phone sex has been around forever. But when smart phones were invited, it spiraled out of control. And don't even get me started on when Snapchat became a thing before holy hell.

I would like to say that I'm one of the girls who didn't fall into the sending nudes category but that would be completely false.

My first time sending a semi nude was to Alex. It was after I had lost my virginity to him. My parents had dragged us away for a weekend getaway and I was feeling brave so I sent him pictures. After that, I would do it often.

Now, here I am...going through my recent nudes and revealing pictures. I like to take some specifically for me on the days when I'm feeling specially good and confident about myself. The issue now is that I'm debating rather or not I should send a picture to Noah.

Since we started sleeping together we haven't actually had a normal texting conversation. It's always more of a 'come over.' type situation. And right now I'm feeling a little adventurous.

I'm sitting at an Italian restaurant with Blair across from me, as she flirts with the waitress. Before I can stop myself I send one of my pictures to Noah and hyperventilate in silence.

Finally when the waitress leaves Blair's attention turns back to me. "Oh. My. God." She mouths to me and I smile. "She's gorgeous and I think she might be into me." Blair says and then she looks a bit concerned when I don't answer. "What, you don't think so?"

"Oh. Umm. You were actually asking me?" I say all dumb and distracted. In my defense I didn't actually think she was asking.

"Of course silly." She still sounds a bit concerned.

I chuckle. "I mean, it seems that way. But it can also be that she wants a really big tip." I shrug. It always fun to mess with B.

B's mouth opens in shock. "You're right! I didn't even think about that."

That makes me snort. She's too cute.

Blair is gorgeous. Since I met her she looked exotic to me. And she's so free spirited and easy going. Nothing ever phases her. In a way she reminds me of Noah. To her life is too short to be waisting it. She's very open about her sexuality and embraces it. There's no way she will let labels define her, if she wants a man, or a woman then she goes for it. As long as they're single she says it's all good.

I wish to be like her when I grow up.

"You're such a dork." I say to her with a laugh. "Of course she's into you! She started fluttering her lashes at you since we sat down. It was the cutest thing."

That makes her sigh in satisfaction and I shake my head with a chuckle.

And then my phone dings.

My stomach tightens and I give myself a few seconds before picking it up to see who messaged me.