Our Story

Chapter 21: The Dysfunctional Me I

"Onii-chan!"

"What?"

"Let's play at the playground!"

"No. I'm going to the library."

With a soft click, big brother had closed the door and left the house without any goodbye.

That was how things work in this pathetic sibling relationship. I would go and ask my big brother to play with me and he would just dismiss me plainly. It could be because he wanted to go to the library or just because he didn't want to take me.

Of course, he had never taken me to one before. It would just be dad or mom taking me there.

I didn't understand why would I bother with a big brother that had such an attitude. I didn't. But I guess that attitude of his was the reason that I haven't given up on him.

Out of everyone that I had met in this short span of life, big brother was the only one that had yet to smile at me. Forget about smiling, I doubt he would even care about me.

Both he and I are mere strangers even though we were tied by blood.

But even strangers would smile at me. Not big brother. I wonder why.

Even though, I was still young, I was smart. Though not academically like my big brother, I was able to tell just how to handle with everyone despite their difference in character.

It was simple. Just like an actress, all you have to is smile sweetly and think of a way to act like the character that would work well with the other. There's no need for any genuine emotions in it, just smile and act.

That alone would surely win the hearts of many. Sure there were times that the people mom and dad had introduced me to barely showed any sort of interest in me but just leave a few seconds and act like a character that would go well with them, then I would surely win them over as well.

Really it was simple.

Why would I do such things? It would have already been obvious. I simply did not want to make any enemies. Of course, once I won them over, manipulating them is just easy. Although I had never done such things. But at the very least, I won't be going to their 'pitch black' list.

Of course, I will use them if necessary.

Devious? No, no, no. Such things are not evil. After all, the person that was using them and the bond that they had with said person was not real.

Everything is just an act after all, nothing is real.

I've been living like that even when I was still a small child.

But the strange things was, I could never get any sort of reaction from big brother. No smile, no glare, nothing. Just his bored and plain face. Adding the fact that his eyes look dead. There's just nothing.

It was a pain. Out of everyone that I had met, the only person that had the most use would most probably be my big brother.

I would never use my parents. Although in the past I was planning to do so but then I realised how cruel of me to do that. They had brought me to this world, at the very least, I should be grateful towards them.

Not surprising enough, my parents are the only ones that I had real attachments to.

Speaking of attachment, big brother was a mystery. He was never really closed with anyone from all those time I had observed him. Though he did admit that he does love mom and dad, that was the only time that I had seen him openly admit something.

I wonder if my big brother was an introvert or something so I did a few test. I once acted the character that would constantly be by the side of the introvert and always waiting and cheering for the day the introvert would open up, but it failed.