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Chapter 9: The Boy's Life III

"Kushina-san... there's something that I want to talk to you about."

"Hm?"

The moment I explained to her what my request was, I received an immediate reject.

But what was more suprising was the fact that she had this horrified look on her face. It is as if she fears about me leaving her.

Seeing as Kushina-san rejected it, I could only nod in understanding.

It's look like I won't be joining Touko-san after all.

"I see.."

"Daisuke's sorry."

"No, you shouldn't. I guess I can understand."

She looked downed after hearing about what Kushina-san's answer was and I could not help but feel bad.

But then, I should not go against Kushina-san's order since she has been taking care of me for a long time now.

Yet, I...

"I... I wanted someone to follow me so that I could have someone taking care of my back while I'm with onii-chan.. I don't know why, but the day my dad called me asking if I would like it if I were to live with onii-chan once more scared me. Just the thought of being with onii-chan brought up so many worries...... But I wanted to have a strong bond with onii-chan... I want to..."

"..Daisuke's been wondering...why Daisuke?"

"...I wondered about why I chose you then I realised it. You, out of all people, are the only one that I trust with my whole heart, Daisuke-kun. In fact, you are the first person I had ever talked about myself to."

"..hehe.."

Just for her to say those words, even if she does not loves me, those words had made me very happy that I could feel my cheeks heating up again.

"Hihi. You're cute when you're blushing."

"...hnngh.."

"....but I guess, this only means that this is a problem that I have to solve on my own... I should have not involved an outsider into family business... I'm sorry.."

She was trembling. Touko-san had a determined look on her face yet she was trembling. For the first time in our six years of friendship, this is the first time that I saw Touko-san trembling and this was the first expression that I don't want to see on Touko-san at all.

I want to help her. I want to go with her.

With my mind set on those, I kept asking Kushina-san about it and yet the answer was the same.

Until one day..

"Why?"

"w-Why?"

"Why won't Kushina-san let Daisuke go?"

"....let..let you go...?"

It was then Kushina-san started crying. And once more, in my nine years worth of memories, I have never once seen Kushina-san cry.

"Nine years ago.. it's because I let you go.. it's because I let you roam the city.. because of that... I got you hurt and you lost your memories... h-how could I? How could I let you go again after all that? How?!"

"k-Kushina-san.."

I was conflicted. I could not choose between Kushina-san or Touko-san. My mind could decide it at all.

On one end, I thought that I should choose Kushina-san. She had been there for me even before I had lost my memories. She was the one that took care of me even after I lost my memories. She was there all the time.