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Chapter 22: The Dysfunctional Me II

"I'm happy that you could come, Daisuke."

"Well, it's all thanks to the advice Kyou-nii gave to Daisuke that Daisuke was able to come."

It was surprising to say the least. I could have not imagine that big brother would try and visit me. Although he didn't actually visited me but he did tried. That made me... somewhat happy.

"Onii-chan.. so he hasn't forgotten about me."

"Of course! Kyou-nii is a cool guy! There was no way Kyou-nii would be a mean person!"

All the while when he tried to visit, he came across Daisuke. Big brother was the one that helped Daisuke with persuading Kushina to allow him to follow me.

I am even more surprised because of that. I mean, the big brother that I knew ten years ago barely interact with anyone even in the family. Yet now, he was able to interact with Daisuke and even gave him advice...

Just how much has he changed over these ten years?! Yes, ten years is a long time but this change was very drastic. Like he is a complete different person now!

Did...did mom's death affect him that much?

If.. if.. if that's the reason, then... I feel... somewhat... troubled. Big brother changed a lot.. perhaps for the better.. well of course for the better yet I... yet I had yet to found my true self. No.. more like, things had gotten quite.. complicated.

Over the years I had been with Daisuke, I had found a certain conclusion.

I was only able to be true to myself when I am around Daisuke only.

In class, I had been doing what my heart felt like doing all the time, while awkward as it was when I do things like that, I felt somewhat complete. That was of course, when I was with Daisuke alone.

But as soon as Daisuke was not around either because he was absent or sick, I was at loss of words. When my classmates had approached me, I had tried to act what my heart would feel like doing... but my heart felt nothing. It was empty.

My classmates felt awkward with the silence so I had to resort in using my acting skills to interact with them.

This had happened even when Daisuke was around with everyone else. While talking with Daisuke, my heart would be overflowng with countless emotions, I would want to talk with him forever and even just look at him forever- okay now that was out of topic but as soon as the others talked with me, it happened again. I would be at loss of what to do so I had to resort to acting.

I had wanted to fix this problem. I mean, if this had to go one forever, then I have no other choice but to live with Daisuke forever!

That is not a bad idea, I mean, it's lovely. To live with my Daisuke-chan...

Okay! Okay! Okay! Now this is really getting out of hand!

That's another one of my problem. I could not stop thinking about Daisuke. Everytime I thought of something, even something as important as this personality problem, my mind would flash that cute and loveable image of Daisuke smiling and laughing while saying my name with such love....

Okay! Stupid brain! I get your point! I'm in a middle of thinking of something important! Sure Daisuke-

Ahhhhhh!!!

"T-Touko-san?"

"Y-yes?!"

"Is Touko-san okay?"

"Y-yeah."

Of course I am not! I can't stop thinking of you! Stop looking at me with such a cute concern face! Ah, you're too cute, I just want to hug you! Please don't look so concern! I am okay as long I have-