THE FINAL ROUND (BUILD ME UP TRILOGY) Roddy Ricch Fanfiction

Chapter 55

HeavenLeigh POV

I looked in the casket, looking at Roddy for the very last time.

This feels... Unreal. Being at Roddy's funeral.

I can't even believe he's having a funeral.

Everybody that came to the funeral was now outside just conversing, and taking pictures and what not. So we had this alone time.

This isn't right.

This isn't fair.

I took my shades off, and looked down at him as tears streamed down my face.

"Why didn't you talk to me.." I mumbled lowly as I took a deep breath.

I hate that he hated his life so much, that he just wanted to take it.

I really hate that for him.

I felt somebody tap me, I looked down seeing Honesty, and she frowned as she started crying.

"Aww baby." I said picking her up, and I held her. She looked at her dad, and said "Buh bye, buh bye" as she just cried and waved bye at him.

And that broke me into pieces.

I'm supposed to hold it together for her, but I couldn't even do that. I was so heart broken.

No matter what me and Roddy been through, I always said I would have love for him. And I always did. And I'm glad we had the conversation we had, before he did what he did.

Deon walked up to me because Honesty started screaming and crying at once, and he said "I got her Heaven"

I sobbed as he grabbed Honesty and took her outside, and I grabbed Roddy's hand.

"I'm gonna read what you wrote.. When I get home okay?" I said to him as I intertwined our fingers together.

He left me a note that night, and I seen it on the floor beside him where I found him.

I just never had the guts to open it. But now, I will.

Kamal walked up to the casket, and looked down at him.

I looked over at Kamal, and tears just continuously ran down his face.

"I- I ain't got the words for this shit" He said as he rubbed his face. I gave him a hug, and he hugged me back as we both just sobbed.

When we pulled away, he looked down at Roddy again. And he said "No matter what, I always loved you man. I don't know what made you make this decision, but.. I love you. And I just hope you're okay now."

Then Kamal went and sat back down burying his face in his hands.

I seen Remy and Latrel standing behind me, and I could tell Remy's mind was everywhere.

Especially because her and Roddy didn't end in a good place. At all.

Him and Kamal didn't either, but it wasn't as bad. But him and Remy? Was terrible.

Remy walked up to the casket, and squinted her eyes before she took a deep breath. And a tear rolled down her face.

"You fucked me up wit this one Roddy.." Remy said as she sighed.

"I hate that we ended things off the way we did. Why you do that? Why you leave like that? Huh?" Remy asked as she just started crying, and I pulled her in to hug me.

"Why he do that Heaven?" She cried out.

I couldn't even answer, because I still didn't understand that myself.

I just cried with her as we held each other.

We both pulled away at the same time and she just shook her head as she walked into Latrel's arms and he held her.

I looked down at Roddy, and I leaned down, kissing his forehead.

"Goodbye Rodrick..." I said. Then the man standing beside the casket slowly closed it. And all the pallbearers stood near the casket, which included Kamal, and Latrel, along with four other men and they lifted the casket up, carrying it out the building so we could get him buried.

My mom walked up to me and said "I know baby" as she held me.

Two major deaths in one year.

My father, and now Rodrick.

I can't take anymore.

My mother kissed my forehead and wiped the tears from her face, and me, her, and Remy held hands together as we followed the pallbearers out of the building.

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Hours later

Me, Deon and Honesty walked inside of the house, and I took my heels off right at the door, and took my hat and shades off, sighing.

My eyes were puffy and swollen from all that crying. Honesty was asleep in Deon's arms, man. We were all tired.

Worn out and hurt.

"I'll go lay her in her bed okay?" Deon said.

"Okay.. Thank you so much" I said.

"Of course" He said.

I watched him walk up the stairs with Honesty, and I rubbed my face.

I didn't really know what to do with myself.

Now my baby has to grow up without her father.

Knowing I'll never ever see Roddy again, was crazy to me. And that's the saddest part about all of this.

I walked to the living room, sitting down on the couch and I grabbed the note that he wrote me from my purse. And I unfolded it, finally reading it.

"HeavenLeigh,

By the time you read this, I've already made my decision. And I want you to know this decision I made has nothing to do with you, or anything like that. I've always thought about this, way before I even met you. These thoughts been in my head since I was 14. And was still in my head when we met. But you... You took my mind off of it for a long period of time. But now I'm just done. I don't have no purpose anymore. My music is down the toilet, my career is over, I don't have shit. I don't even think God love me anymore. I'm a waste of space. I was in denial about a lot of things for a while, but I finally came to grips with everything. I know we had plans, not romantically but you get what I mean, plans for our daughter and the future. And you probably thinking damn, what about the plans we made? And I'm sorry. I just wanna go man. I wanna go. I don't get along with anybody, and I don't fit in with this world. I hope you go off and be happy, and find love again. You deserve it. I put you through so much, I just want you to be with a nigga that's ten times better than me. And will treat you like the queen you are. The angel you are. Shit, maybe that nigga is Kamal after all. I'll never know. Tell Honesty I'm sorry, I know she'll have a lot of questions when she's gets older. Let her know I love her, and this wasn't her fault either. It's nobody's fault. It's all me. I just wanna go. Everything will run a lot smoother for everybody. I love you HeavenLeigh, and I thank you for loving me. Thank you for showing me sides of myself that I didn't even know I had. Thank you for bringing me closer to God. Thank you for showing me what loyalty really is. And thank you for giving me my baby girl, Honesty. You truly are the best thing that's ever happened to me, and you are the best thing that came out of my life. You and our daughter. I finally got a chance to experience real love, with you. Please forgive me for this shit. Don't be angry with me. I'll see you again.

-Rodrick"

And after I read it, I seen a tear drop on the bottom of the page, and I tilted my head back as I started crying silently.

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