Kiss Your Crϋe Goodbye (A Kiss & Mӧtley tale)

Chapter 53: At the Corner of 96th & Mars

Where the hell does time go? My life, there has been moments that lasted forever or so I felt: an eternity of torment at the hands of Paul and Gene.... even Bruce looking the other way. My parents, the abuse I suffered with them, losing John.... those were the moments that I thought time would never ever erase in the slightest, that it would always be that way. I turned out of course to be wrong and its all thanks to my beloved Alien: Mick Mars. Mick whose saved my life over and over, day after day....and still is doing that all these years after our first fateful meeting. My Micky, us married these past 3 decades essentially.

Anyway, my point here is this was especially true from 1995 to 1996: A year of so many firsts for me and my family. mine and mick's 1st wedding anniversary, our daughter's first birthday, my 37th birthday, my Micky's 44th. Not to mention, a tour.... writing songs, raising our daughter, and spending time together, making new and precious memories. Where you next find me and Mick and our precious first born: Erica.... will be 1996. February 15, 1996, the day after Valentine's. And one more thing, I didn't realize that I was pregnant with mine and Mick's second child until we began recording 'Generation Swine', in March of 1996.... meaning that Mick got me pregnant on Valentine's....

I sigh burrowing into my husband's embrace, my head lying on his chest listening to the sound of his heart, and I feel tears spring to my eyes, as I get lost in thought, in feeling....

2 years, 2 years now that Mick and I have been married, next month Erica will be 2....3 years since Mick rescued me from that fucker that tried to rape me, nearly did, time marches ever forward. I've been thru so much to get to this moment, lying in the arms of the one who I love beyond all reason, who saves my life everyday.... listening to the sound of his heart. How much my life has changed for the better since our fateful first meeting, I am ALIVE. I am happy, true I still have my days, my triggers.... but I have come so far. And think next month, we're heading into the studio to record a new album....and wait.... i feel fingers running thru my hair, long...spider-like: MICK.

"I can feel you thinking Eric....and if I am right, I'd argue you save MY life every day. I am so fucking PROUD of you, how far you've come, and I love you beyond all reason and measure." He whispers.

I gape a moment before I pull back enough to look at him.

"My alien...my beautiful alien, you never fail to amaze me." I whisper getting chocked up, reaching a handout to touch his face and he kisses my hand reverently.

"You are the first, last and ONLY one whose ever and could ever have me believe that.... Eric..." He whispers, pulling me closer our lips meeting in a passionate kiss, taking my breath away till we part for air, and we lay there peacefully for a moment before we share a look and laugh at....

"Mommy, daddy...pee-pee! Huwwy!" I raced out of bed, to Erica's room and scooped her up, rushing to the bathroom, helping her and she relives herself, giggling. "I done!"

"Good princess, let's get you all cleaned, ok? Wash your hands and clean your teeth." I tell her, helping change her pampers training underwear.

"Where daddy?"

Before I can answer, Mick does. "Daddy is right here, my Martian princess."

"Mommy fast!" she exclaims.

Mick chuckles, "He is....cat speed." I glare playfully at Mick, as I help Erica wash her hands and then brush her teeth. Mick greets me with a kiss, and I melt into it. "I'll get her dressed sapphire; you take you a nice hot shower, ok?"

"Mick are you sure?"

"Yes, love you."

"Love you too." I really do have the best husband, my beloved and I do mean beloved alien. Erica of course needs cuddles and kisses, which she gets before I take a nice hot shower and dress, and once I am done, I find a note from Mick laying on my pillow....

Dearest Sapphire (Eric),

I love you so much, I hope you had a good shower and were able to take time for yourself. I managed to dress, and Erica is fine, she is eager to see you again. I will be downstairs with her fixing breakfast, but my beloved, if you need me, I will come running.

Your alien,

Mick aka Micky

PS You say that I say your life every day when you've saved mine. You alone have shown me what love is, together we've learned and are always learning. My life without you and our daughter wouldn't be a life at all.

I am in tears now, after reading my husband's note, which I clutch to my chest. My alien, God does he have this way...HIS way.

"Micky...I love you." I whisper, wiping away my tears and head downstairs, following both my nose and my heart.

I enter the kitchen to find Mick at the stove, chatting with Erica and I cannot help for a moment to stop and admire the scene, it's the most beautiful of dreams because it's REAL. Before I can say anything, my daughter catches sight of me.

"Mommy! Food!" She exclaims, making grabby hands and she turns to Mick for a moment, who I can tell without looking is smiling. "Daddy, mommy!" these words and my husband does turn, and a smile is displayed on his lips.

"I see princess, and it's a beautiful sight."

Erica makes grabby hands again and I pick her up, her burrowing into my chest...so fucking adorable by the way! And I greet my husband with a lingering kiss.

"Love you Mick." I whisper.

"Love you too Eric."

Breakfast is before long fixed, I insisted on helping and so we eat and spend time together as a family, happy, whole and content and truly this is the best. Truly it is, after breakfast I insist on washing dishes, Erica 'helping' in her way and once everything is all cleaned...we all cuddle together on the couch.

Just wait till you hear what comes out of Erica's mouth now....

"Mommy? Daddy? Can I have a brudda or sissy?" Erica's gaze reminds me so much of Mick, and very serious for her young age, and her question floors me. See what I meant?

I look fearfully at Mick.... little did we know, I was already pregnant....

The tears come before I can stop them, I would LOVE more children.... but those fears and what happened with Erica, come back to haunt me.

"Eric.... shh, it will be ok. I PROMISE you that what happened last time wont happen this time. I see it in your eyes, and I am here to help you through this. I love you..." WITH a free hand, my husband gently strokes my face and I get his true message.

"Mommy? I no make sad wight? I sowwy..." Erica's eyes fill with tears.

"No, sweetheart...you didn't. I just...have been thru so much and sometimes I get sad. Mommy was hurt when I was pregnant with you by bad people, but see? Daddy saved me, daddy always does."

"Hugs hep? And wuv?"

"They do, its YOU and daddy that helps." I told her.

"And we always will Eric. We love you." Mick says, eyes shining as both my husband and daughter continue to hold and comfort me in their way, as my tears continue to fall....

A/N: we've entered 1996....and soon Eric and Mick may expand their family and with a new album recorded.