Kiss Your Crϋe Goodbye (A Kiss & Mӧtley tale)

Chapter 6- The Alien and the Fox Part 1 (Mick Mars)

I worried for Eric, I worried so much.... i dreamed about him, shit I wish to god my mind didn't entertain, shit that sadly came true.....but, I did search for him after he'd disappeared, putting my ear to the ground....observing. and I mulled over...and over among other things, or rather I began to: what if to help him out among other things....he became the drummer for our band? The problem or really the reason why I hesitated about that....is it would really put the spot light on him, and make it easier for those bastards aka Paul and Gene to track him. The ultimate thing though was...the trauma Eric was drowning in; I didn't want to make things worse.... but I found I just wanted to help him. It was in my searching for my husband.... i would find Eric's predecessor: Eric Carr the Fox.... or rather I should say.... he found ME and it is our meeting that would lead me to FINDING MY Eric....

I can't find him, I've looked.... but I know he's moved on.... Where do the broken go? Where does a broken runaway drummer go? I haven't found him at that bar I rescued him at....and I sure hell UNDERSTAND WHY. And I finally bit the bullet the other day, telling Vince and Nikki about Eric.... they hate Kiss or Gene and Paul even MORE now after I told them, I'd found Eric....it was hard for me to tell them, I kept breaking down....and I felt...FEEL guilty that I told them. I just wanted...NEEDED help and I trust them.... they're about the only two people and that's rare as fuck for me, that I trust completely. Even if they drive me up the damn wall a lot of times.... I'd even mentioned to them my thoughts of us finding another drummer, and that drummer being Eric. I was hesitant, but Nikki aka the band leader really said he was ok with it, it would be a HUGE FUCK YOU to Kiss, but that it would be entirely up to Eric. Nikki especially understood the traumatic aspects in regard to Eric.... I....

"Excuse me? Don't I know you? You look familiar." A voice of a sudden intrusion breaks me out of my reverie. Oh yes, I'm on the lookout for Eric.... worried....and why does this stranger seem SO familiar?

I take a good look and I realize, the mass of curly raven hair.... I glare.

"Ah, calm down.... i was just out and about....and I KNOW who you are. you're Mick Mars... You remember me?" He asks.

I sigh, "Sorry for being an asshole.... but lemme ask.... are you Eric Carr by chance?"

"Yes. Its been a long time....and I take it from the glare you'd given me, automatic response....you look like you have a lot on your mind." Concerned now.

"I do.... i am trying to find someone." Not wanting to give too much away, not fully trusting him.

"Tell you what. To show I mean no harm....and cause I can tell you don't wanna talk here....would you be willing to catch up somewhere? I know a diner, where we won't be bothered."

I relent...wondering now...if somehow he can help me....he's Eric's friend...he deserves to know, but he understands why it seems I don't trust him or that I am hesitant about things. So, I followed him to the diner and next thing I knew we were sitting in a private booth.

I raise an eyebrow, "You must come here often." I remark.

He grins, " I do....and you can call me 'Fox' the name stuck....i choose it anyway..." and here Fox's expression darkens. "Back when I was naïve as fuck...eager to make it."

"Fox..." I begin, "tell me about.... well...." I stammer awkwardly.

"The cancer? All of that?" Fox eyes me seriously, "My 'beef' with Kiss? Eric? Ok, I want you to be able to trust me." I nod at this, but before he can say anything a waitress interrupts, I opt for coffee, Fox orders a soda and fries and then he begins, "the story with me being a stove repairman was true, auditioning for Kiss back when Peter left in 1980. Kiss was my favorite band, I WANTED that to be my life. I got the audition of course, and there was always something kind of off about Gene and Paul...Paul is...a diva, very vain....and really cruel to say the least. Gene is like Paul's lap dog, took me a long time to see.....and I was close with Bruce, that was also true....and the more things changed as I got famous....and the fact that I NOT those bastards saved Kiss back then, I had a fall out with them....89', when it came around. I didn't talk to Paul especially at all...." Well now, I shouldn't be surprised....but the origins of that feud...well now I am gaining insight, I hope this will somehow help me find Eric..., "I was lied to...they attempted to 'pass' me around, manipulating me....and then a few short years later. I got cancer....it ravaged me, and not once did they come see me or help me....it killed me, because part of me wanted them too." Fox continues quietly in tears, "I was pissed they as soon as I got sick dropped me really even my supposed 'best friend' Bruce and then they 'chose' a replacement when I wasn't even dead yet, so I was pissed at Eric....but they did him worse than they ever did me, I'd come to find out....Eric surprised me, he came to see me....took a lot of fucking guts and my 'enemy' talked to me, told me....and I was an inch away from death....but the miracle is...it saved my life...he did, I TRIED TO WARN him....he was afraid, too much....to listen....and it was the last time he was really brave enough. They BROKE him even more so than I ever was....and now he's gone, I don't know where...he's, my friend."

"Damnit...Fox, I am SORRY for what it's worth. I will take a chance here and trust you...I can see you are being truthful...you didn't deserve ANY of what you've been thru.... but what I have to tell you, it has to do with Eric....and you're not going to LIKE what you hear." I tell him seriously, unable to hold back my tears. "I need help....i need to find him......I want to HELP him, do something right, he deserves to have someone fight for him, to have a place where he belongs." I spilled out in a rush.

Fox eyes me knowingly, eagerly and yet fucking dreading what he is about to hear......He wants to know, to find his friend.... he won't hurt Eric; I see that now.... this though will HURT.

"Breathe...you look like you're gonna have a panic attack Mick." I didn't even realize it till he pointed it out, I calmed myself with great effort. "And I take it.... you've found him already....and he ran?" Fox questions looking worried at that.

"Yes," I whisper practically, "I'd found him in a bar on Sunset..." I begin, "I heard.....screams, HIS screams....he was....was nearly raped, the guy was about to penetrate him....no lube, Eric was drunk, and broken....so broken, I beat the shit out of the fucker....and tried to help Eric, he screamed, flinched as I helped him....i carried him, and took him to the hospital....he was out for 2 weeks, he had I saw that night....bruises, older ones...newer ones that I knew weren't from the man that attempted....to do the unspeakable, and at first I didn't know it was Eric and then I realized....and I did NOT like what I was putting together....I KNEW IT HAD TO DO SOMETHING WITH THOSE MONSTERS....I've never forgiven Kiss for kicking us off that tour, and WE knew something wasn't right, and sadly that had good reason to not trust them. And sad to say there is more....to my part of this twisted tale."

Fox is sobbing into his hands, the coffee and fries and soda for him...just coffee for me forgotten....and to tell the damn truth, I am in much the same state....

Eric.... are you ok? So, to speak....i hope I can find you, and save you once again....i just want to help, help you.....

still to come, there is more to my meeting with Fox.....and it let to me once again finding my Eric, and saving a life once again....or as my husband came to say, "You have saved my life every day Mick Mars, whether I knew it at the start or not....you never fucking gave up on me, you never gave up."

A/N: A fox-ly meeting, Fox's own Kiss related tale, Mick gaining trust with a friend, Eric's friend and there is more to come for their meeting, a part 2....and then Eric Singer shall be found and rescued once again by the 'Alien'.