As Eric and I have often said that day March 17, 2000...which is 23 years ago now, but the point is all those years ago, we often have said it was one hell of a day. We had no clue Eric was pregnant, he'd even taken tests...been to the doctor and everything always came back negative which really devastated Eric especially and me. But ah yes, ironic that date of March 17, 2000, because it was St. Patrick's Day and not only that, but my poor husband's nightmare also came true. He'd come home shaken from that AND doubled over in pain, screaming, and crying and I was fucking SCARED. Scared at what was happening, scared to lose Eric and what turned out to be our fifth and final child, just scared. I wanted to tear Bruce limb from Limb, Eric had already been through ENOUGH and the surprise birth? I was a wreck, but Eric needed me and my children, as scared as they were, were right there with me...doing whatever they could to help, especially Erica her calling 911 and just being my helper.... And I helped to bring my fifth child into this world, I could never forget the moment I delivered my child and Eric, my poor Eric so out of it...in shock, in such shock and where you next find us...will be in the hospital a few days later....
And one more thing if you just so happen to be wondering: I made DAMN sure that I had Bruce arrested and got Eric justice and closure on that, believe you me.
It's been a few days, 2 or 3...not exactly sure. It's been an emotional rollercoaster to say the least, a newborn child...which thank God is and was born healthy and full term from what I've been told, doesn't stop me from worrying about them though and Eric, Eric has been asleep...it scared me, it does...scared that I could have and still could lose him. I hate having these fears.... the reactions of my now four oldest, they take after me...Eric insists they do with their heart, their stubborn determination and I love that...but their reactions, worry for their mother, for me.... their new sibling has been, as I've said, an emotional roller coaster. Telling the family, was something else...again with the shock, the worry, you name it...but they fucking came running AND we've already got a nursery set up courtesy of our family and it has meant so much. The baby still hasn't been named yet; I want...I want to do that with Eric.
Everyone too has been by, helping me with the kids...checking on me....and I couldn't do this alone and I thank God I don't have to.
I will Eric to wake up, whispering to him...its just me, him and all five of our children. I look down at the small, fussy but STUNNING little angel in my arms and I melt, this is bitter-sweet, I rock HER gently.
"Shh Princess you're ok I promise." Said little girl kicks her little legs as her face turns red and she begins to wail, as I continue to rock her in my arms and THEN IT HAPPENS. A low groaning sounds and Eric, my sapphire...who looks around wildly, out of it and is quickly starting to panic. "Eric! Eric, sapphire its ok. I'm here ok, I'm here...our children are here. Calm down, please."
"Mick?" Eric croaks, closing his eyes before reopening them and then they fill with tears seeing our newborn daughter in my arms, "Is that....so, wow.... Wow, I really had another baby. And...and is the baby, ok?" The little girl in my arms, downgrades to fussing hearing her mother's voice, there is NOT a dry eye in this room, me included.
"Yes Sapphire, SHE is very healthy.... full term, and meet our newborn daughter..." I carefully stand with my precious bundle in my arms and for the first time, true time Eric holds her with my help, our four oldest gathered around watching as their youngest sister tugs impatiently at Eric's hospital gown, which he pulls down exposing his chest and the little girl instantly latches on and begins to nurse. "---I haven't named her yet, I didn't want to do that without you Eric. I wanted YOU to name her. This is....one of the best surprises of my life, I want...no need you to know that I love you."
Eric sighs carefully but heavily due to our still yet unnamed baby girl and I see the pain and guilt in his eyes along with the love for all five of our children. "---Micky, I am SO sorry that I put you and especially the kids thru all this, I know it wasn't easy...and I..."
"Momma, I know it wasn't easy...but we love you, I called 911 to help daddy. Me, John, Stormy, and River stayed and helped because we love you so much. You can't help what happened, mommy...and I AM SORRY.... i had that nightmare about..."
This time Eric cuts her off tearfully, the baby switching sides now with my help. "Erica.... honey, neither of us should blame ourselves. This wasn't your fault you hear me? And really it wasn't mine. I can't tell you how PROUD I am of you and your sisters and brother and how much I love all of you, and daddy. Daddy and I love all of you, all five of you very much. Always, always remember that."
"I will mommy."
Soon the little girl in my beloved arms is full and Eric and I are highly emotional as she is burped and Eric cradles her to his chest.
"Mommy?" John asks.
"Yes son?"
"What name? Daddy said need name."
Eric smiles, which god have I really missed and his eyes light up as it comes to him, and he turns carefully to me. "Micky...John, KIDS.... i just really would love to name her Ivy, Ivy Rose Mars."
I kiss Eric carefully, loving the feeling so much. "That sounds perfect Eric, absolutely perfect." And I turn to our children, "What do you guys think of your new sister's name? Ivy Rose."
"It pweety daddy." Stormy says sweetly.
"I wuv it." River smiles.
"Ivy looks just like mommy daddy." Erica states softly.
Eric beams, "Yeah, she does...but, she has your father's eyes. And I just have to say, that all five of you have your father's sprit, his heart..." Eric holds back a sob, "Ivy wouldn't be here with out him, none of you would.... daddy saved my life and my heart, everyday he does....so do all of you."
"Eric." I croak out tearfully, unable to say much more, but Eric's gaze is knowing. "I love you; I love you so much.... I've missed you; we all have."
"I love you too Mick, I love you too...and god have I missed you all."
Eric's awakening, him naming our fifth and final child.... our surprise but no less loved and beloved youngest daughter: Ivy Rose Mars.... all that day is forever seared into my memory. I could never forget, and I mean that shit, doesn't matter I am now in my 70s....while Eric had slept, it was like I was missing a part of myself....and I can never tell you in mere words how very much I missed him, everything about him. and again, his awakening and for the first-time meeting Ivy....it was very bitter-sweet, it was also everything.
And for a taste of next time, Eric would learn what exactly happened while he slept....and our oldest children would at last hold their little sister. Keep those tissues handy, I tell you now....
A/N: OMG, only 3 chapters left after this!! Part to this chapter is coming up soon!
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