As always now.... i am dreaming, I've passed from one nightmare to another.... because Mick doesn't know that I am pregnant...and I don't even know if he's looking for me....
"Eric.... Did you really think we wouldn't find out? That we were stupid?" Paul hisses practically, "No.... I.... please Paul.... Gene.... I.... don't take my baby away from me!" I cradle my stomach protectively; seems they barged in on me without warning. I back up as well as I can, in a manner like a frightened and cornered animal.
"It's that alien's, isn't it?" Paul frowns, tone jealous.... but he 'smiles', "Just think.... you could have had ours or Gene's...who the hell knows whose it was.... you're such a whore after all. No...No.., I'm not going to make you lose your baby.... imagine the irony of me raising that bastard you carry, and Mars will never know." There is a charge in the air, the heavy oppressive air, Paul.... Gene...something has happened, I see panic in their eyes.... fear. They are hiding something from me.
"You know something Paul?" Gene and Paul share a look, "Maybe we should have a go with Eric for old times sake?" I can feel myself, pale and choke out a sob, trembling.... the child with me, squirming.
I blink, and I am bare....being held down, I don't want my baby to be hurt....i don't......I sob, beg them to stop....beg.....sobbing, as I feel....just like the night, I was nearly raped....my baby is still moving, letting me know they are ok....they seem frantic though, feeling my fear.
Suddenly, the door crashes in.... there is a lot of shouting...I sob, unable to move...shaken, scared.... desperately trying to calm. The sounds of grunts.... that familiar voice I know so well: My eyes widen: Mick.... It's Mick. He's come for me.... He came for ME. And just as suddenly, almost as if the child with in me knows their father is here.... they calm.... i still tremble....and I start feeling dizzy, the shouting and banging noises cease....and I am suddenly surrounded by lemons, vodka, and leather....as I seem to pass out and all fades....
But not before I hear in the darkness, "I'm here Eric.... I'm here, you're gonna be ok. Baby, I got those bastards for you, I had some help.... I've got you Sapphire.... I've got you. Please...hang on...hang on..."
Yet another scene takes place.... this one very bitter-sweet.... touching....
Me heavily pregnant, the baby....squirming as best SHE can....not much room, it being near time for her to be born, the movements she is making....her precious little feet and hands leaving impressions against my stomach, me placing my hands where she touches...and another set of hands join mine....me loving the tattoos on them, 1313....and Mars...belonging to my Micky. We are so happy here at this moment, even admist all the storms.
"I Can never get over this Micky.... i marvel at it.... our rainbow baby..." I smile despite my tears, "She'll be here soon.... she's beautiful Micky."
"I know just what you mean Eric, I never thought I'd get to be a father...a husband....to have someone love me completely, even love my skeletons...and I found that person in YOU....my soulmate, I dare say....our daughter has your energy, always moving....but I can never say what It means and how I feel....to hear you say she has my heart beat, my spirit. Stubborn just like me, a fighter. I love you and she, so much...so damn much. We will get thru the storms we face in life together, always."
I wake up bawling, the room still dark.... the moon is out....and I try and calm for my child's sake.... i cradle my stomach, which has grown.... still small and I am sure I am underweight...but it's been I think 2 months, two lonely...lonely months, lonely but for the child within me. Isolated, broken.... Paul and Gene have been gone, and even from afar...now...my dreams are fading.... even from afar, they've sent me letters.... taunting phone calls, keeping me in line.... they will be back for me, and I dread it.... they are coming back.... but not NOW, I hope.... apparently a few more days.... till Hell comes knocking at my door. Like anything else Gene and Paul told me.... THAT of course turned out to be another lie, to break me. And that Mick.... we'll you'll find out soon enough...
"Neither seen nor...heard." I whisper, my voice bitter.... feeling Dizzy....my morning sickness is still rough. I groan, breathing in and out deeply till it passes and I talk whispering of course to my baby, "Least I have you.... I wish things were different. I wish.... I didn't let THEM get into my head. You didn't deserve this...I feel like I don't deserve you, and I KNOW that's not true.... i...just wish things were different. But I do KNOW I love you.... you're the only part of your father I have left.... i could use a bath, ok sweet pea?" I get no answer, but I caress my stomach just feeling my baby. I just started referring to them as sweet pea, beats calling them 'baby' all the time and I alternate it with 'my little alien'.... Tears slip down my face, me feeling so exhausted, as carefully I get out of bed.... heading to the bathroom, looking over my shoulder...jumping at the least little sound as I get the shower ready and step in.... the light dim.... continually glancing down at my stomach as I carefully wash my body and hair. "I am so afraid...I have the worst nightmares, sweet pea.... I.... The last time I felt safe was with your father. He's saved my life.... more than once. His name is Mick...Mick Mars, he's an alien...a beautiful alien, perfect to me.... i never told him about you, I was and am afraid. I feel I don't deserve him, he's always SO kind...patient, gentle.... He gives me a say. We didn't exactly talk about having children, but I do know I'd never be ashamed of you, my little alien. He gave me a home, and with him...I've experienced things I've never known or felt before. I miss him...I miss him....so fucking much. Forgive me.... forgive me." I lean my head back against the shower wall. I hear noises....and I freeze.... downstairs.... i feel my eyes widen.... FUCK!!!
"No..." I breathe, hurrying now with my shower.... finishing and then the door opens to my room, and I rush to my clothes, turning off the water...and to my horror, my pure horror stands Paul and Gene in the doorway...their expressions....my nightmare....my nightmare is fixing to come true! I see the fear.... I see the fear in THEIR eyes. At this point in time, I didn't register.... couldn't that.... Mick was coming to my rescue, he had help of course...but anyway...
"Oh.... Eric, you've been a very bad kitty. You're pregnant, aren't you? With that alien's spawn." Paul gives one of his 'smiles', which I know means trouble.
"My baby...OUR baby is NOT a spawn!" I snap, trying to dress...when I am stopped and held....and it is at this point.... i feel something strange, strings with in me....my eyes widen: My baby....and it happens again, I realize....my sweet pea is moving! Paul grabs my chin roughly.
"If it wasn't for YOU...we could have had our own.... or was it Gene's? Who knows? Don't worry, I won't harm your precious baby Eric.... but we will see if you're alien will still want you. He's alive you know, and he's been looking for you....and I lied, you Will receive our special attention...." Rushed, frantic. I fight....NOW I fight, but their grip is strong....i feel the fluttery movements of my baby.....and next thing I know, naked...afraid, sobbing...screaming....they try and gag me, I fight...being mindful of my unborn child as i can....and then...I get sick, thankful in this moment for my morning sickness all over both Paul and Gene and I feel dizzy again...and I hear banging sounds, and the door flies open....and THAT voice I know so well...I've heard in my dreams...sounds out, things are getting hazy, as I hear shouting and the sounds...of someone or is it someone's? getting the shit beat out of them and things...go black.... but not before i hear the words from my dreams...
"I'm here Eric...I'm HERE. Please be ok.... I love you."
A/N: Forgive me for the cliffhanger!! I promise, the baby will end up being ok...Eric will be in the hospital for a while, as he is at the moment at risk. Eric is now around 3 months pregnant; I've decided to change/move things around and along. Next chapter will be Mick dealing with Eric being gone, what that was like, what he felt etc... another emotional rollercoaster. And then the following chapter will tie in with this one, Mick coming to Eric's rescue and their official reunion will come after all that, so lots to come and lots happening. Stay tuned!
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Kiss Your Crϋe Goodbye (A Kiss & Mӧtley tale)
RomansSummary: What if the tale is one that you never saw coming? That you could have imagined? Eric Singer can tell you that very well, in 1993 he leaves Kiss and ends up joining Mӧtley Crϋe as their drummer ultimately. Things though are never what they...
