Kiss Your Crϋe Goodbye (A Kiss & Mӧtley tale)

Chapter 44: Its Almost Time (Mick Mars)

For Roughly the past month & a half a lot has been going on, but most importantly.... JUSTICE was at last served to those bastards for what they did to Eric, but to be honest...I STILL want to beat the living shit out of them and that's with me Being nice about it. My husband struggled still after the news came down, with the trauma...with the pain.... the nightmares especially. I didn't give up on him, I'd fucking NEVER do that....and so that brings us too now: my beloved Sapphire is 8 months pregnant and at last his nightmares are going away or haven't happened recently. Eric's head space is and has slowly but surely gotten better. Still, both of us are excited...the tender anticipation of our daughter's arrival.... something Eric and I could never have imagined, but nonetheless is a dream come true.

Eric is currently sleeping, and I refused to leave him, so here I am watching over him and Erica by extension. It's not late, mid-afternoon.... Then again poor Eric had been up, frequently needing to pee and late-night cravings. I ignore the ever-present pain around my spine, and no fucking lie...Eric is the one that numbs it.

I am sitting up in bed beside my husband, reading....and I set the book aside, not like I could concentrate on it anyway.

He looks so peaceful....so damned beautiful, he's, my world. Erica is doing well, my husband is doing much better than he was mentally....and ah, I see the tell-tale faint quivers meaning that Erica is waking up.

"Hey sweetheart.... its daddy, I can feel you move.... It's one of the best feelings in the world. Mommy has been thru so much, and STILL, he is giving me you...carrying you, loving daddy. I am proud of him.... Neither of us can wait to meet you. Not much longer now princess." I whisper as Erica continues to move and to my great surprise, I see and feel a hand join mine and I meet Eric's sleepy yet loving gaze. "Did I wake you, Eric?" Concerned now.

"Mmm.... i felt her move....and I heard what you said." Eric smiles softly & sleepily, tears in his eyes. He goes to say something else, when we both look at each other, with tear filled eyes and FEEL it: Erica kicks at our hands. "She's kicking Mick.... i think...I mean it's like she knows. I swear she takes after YOU and I love that."

I caress Eric's stomach voice a bit choked, "I do too....and if it wasn't for you, I'd have never believed that before."

Eric's next words get me emotional and oh is it worth it, "Micky its always been there, you have the most beautiful soul and it's a damn shame no one ever gave you a chance before now to show that. You're YOU...and I love that and moreover I love YOU."

I must kiss my husband, and I taste our combined tears and lean my forehead against his....

"You.... changed everything the moment.... i mean granted I wish it had been under far better circumstances, but you changed everything the moment we met."

"Micky.... I just brought out what was there already. I didn't DO anything special." Eric counters whispering making me pull back and look at him.

"You DID Eric...YOU did do something special.... you TRUSTED ME whether you knew it or not, you told me I felt safe...that my home, OUR home felt like me and you are special because you are You....and.... You're carrying our daughter, soon she will be with us. You make me so fucking proud every moment of every day...NEVER doubt that."

"You.... are right Micky....and...." Eric goes to say something else when he grabs my hands and places them on his stomach and I must smile, as I feel Erica kicking a lot. "She wants attention I think.... attention from daddy." Softly now. "I don't have to pee...this moment." Eric adds on.

I lean in and kiss my husband once more before gently I lay him back and reverently, lift his t-shirt, exposing his swollen stomach and I look on in wonder, tears in my eyes as I caress where our daughter lay and I see the most beautiful sights: Eric....and tiny impressions of Erica's little hands and her feet as she kicks away, I must kiss the tender and firm flesh where my little Martian princess is.

"You wanted my attention huh princess?" More kicks in response as if she'd talking to me, but they are gentle. "I can feel how much you love me...love the sound of my voice." Kick, Kick...., "Soon you'll be here with us. You don't know how badly we've wanted you, that I wanted you. You are the best of both mommy and me. I'd love if you have his smile, but I already know Erica you are so beyond beautiful...otherworldly. I love you sweet girl." Erica is moving more gently now, like she is content, and I look up to my husband who is in tears.

"Mick.... i don't think I've told you this yet and for that I am sorry, but.... you are already an amazing father."

"As you are an amazing mother, Eric." I tell my husband, reluctantly I pull his t-shirt down, help him to the bathroom and to fix his hair, pulling it back with his favorite bandana, which used to be mine. He swears it smells like me....

Eric asks if he can go downstairs and says he's hungry, I help him walk carefully downstairs and get him settled and propped up with plenty of pillows on our couch, but he bursts into tears, tearfully telling me he's sore, so I massage him till he feels better and more ready to eat.

"I would love.... A snack too, plums....and strawberries and dinner, could we have my favorite?" Eric asks, hands on his stomach.

"You've got it Sapphire. I love you."

"I love you too." Eric smiles and it makes ME smile, as I fetch the plumbs and strawberries he wants and get started in his favorite carbonara.....before long, dinner is ready and both of us eat, Eric having 2 helpings before declaring he's full for now, afterwards we cuddle on the couch together, me loving the feel of our hearts beating in time, I just love holding Eric period. "Micky?" Eric asks.

"Yes Sapphire?"

"Did.... you want more kids?"

"Yes." I answered without hesitation to reassure Eric. "As many as you want to give me."

"Ok Micky Ok." Yes, God...do I love my husband's way of saying 'yes'.

A thought occurs, "You won't have to worry about anything Eric. I have your bag, Erica's bags.... her car seat and everything ready to go."

"Wow...thank you." Eric beams. No, my love, THANK YOU.

Eric, his first pregnancy with Erica.... Well, that was a memorable one to say the least. All of them were.... I don't want to give everything away (hint-hint). Anyway, the closer time it came for Erica to be born, I made sure Eric was well taken care of in all ways.... his doubts, his fears, the pain.... i was there, still am. I MADE sure too, of course to take care of Erica. God was I excited and nervous, a mixed bag of emotions being a father for the first time and it's something I very and I do mean very much love.

And as it turns out: Erica would arrive on March 13, 1994, almost exactly two months before Eric's 36th birthday and my 43rd. it was emotional, nerve wracking.... surreal, Erica's birth was everything.

A/N: Eric is doing so much better than he was mentally, lots of sweet moments between him and Mick and their daughter. Next chapter erica will be arrive and there will be 3 parts dedicated to her arrival.