ACCIDENTAL ACCIDENT

PROLOUGE : Her- before Reincarnated

I'm tired...

Will then, maybe I should take a nap. It's been 32 hours since I had my last sleep.

Nag-inat muna ako bago maingat na isinara ang laptop. Drain na drain nanaman ang katawan ko, palagi na lang kulang sa tulog ang cycle ng buhay ko. Of course, wala naman akong ibang sisisihin kung bakit ganito ang lifestyle ko kundi ang sarili ko rin mismo.

Nahiga ako sa kama and seems like my tears started flowing again. Napuno nanaman ng emosyon ang imahinasyon ko, katatapos ko lang kasing magrewatch ng anime na 'Your Lie in April'. Hindi ko alam kung bakit hindi ako nagsasawang panoorin iyon, even though it is not good for my heart. Maybe because, maganda ang plot ng story or is it because nakakarelate ako?

I don't know...

After thinking so much, unti-unti nang nagsasara ang mga mata ko.

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Nagising ako sa alarm ng phone ko. After I turned it off, tumayo na ako. Dumeretso muna ako sa cr, after kong mahimasmasan ay pumunta naman akong kusina para maghanda ng kakainin ko. I toasted a bread and brewed a coffee, perfect combination for breakfast.

Then lumabas ako sa bahay para mainitan dahil ilang araw na akong nakakulong sa bahay. I need refreshment of illuminating light from the sun. Naglakad ako nang naglakad hanggang sa makarating ako sa mini park ng subdivision namin.

Memories...

As our memories started flashing again, I settled myself from a nearby bench.

One such memory is the blissful summer of my childhood. I can still vividly recall the warmth of the sun on my face as I ran through fields of wildflowers with him, laughter filling the air. However, amidst the laughter, there was a tinge of melancholy, knowing that those carefree days would eventually come to an end.

Another bittersweet memory is bidding farewell to a loved one.

The tears from my eyes shed were a testament to the profound love and connection I shared with, yet the void left behind was a constant reminder of his absence.

Seems like those memories possesses the power to leave an everlasting imprint on my soul, reminding of the intricacies and fragility of life.

Its like the entire park enveloped by my bittersweet memories. Painful and sad.  Felt like  God abandoned me, cruel and harsh. Inside, I am screaming in pain, but no one seems to notice. Pero sino ba naman ako, I was just his creation and I should be grateful for that only reason.

Horrible isn't it? Being in love, makes you vulnerable. Kaya siguro, for over 3 years, I can't move forward.

He is dead, but I can't get over him. I'm still waiting for him to come back and be with me, again.

When will that time come?

Huli ko nang namalayang naglalakad na pala ako sa kahabaan ng kalsada. Matapos kong makarinig ng ingay ng mga nagdaraang sasakyan at papalapit na serena nito, isang napakalakas na pwersa ang tumulak sakin na naging dahilan ng pagbagsak ko.

What? What are these feeling? Why can't I move? My whole part feels numb.

I see...

And with that, I could see blurry faces of people looking at me.

I was caught in an accident. Maybe this is the end. I'm tired, really.

Kung kukunin niyo man ako, sana isang bagsakan lang, because I'm done with sufferings. Ayoko na ng another po-problemahin.

And with that, my blurry vision turns into endless darkness.