With everything in me

Boongi time

Yoongi POV

"What the fuck Taehyung?" I shout as Tae crashes through the door to my room, giving me such a shock I would almost have spilled my water bottle all over my equipment. "Hyung, we gotta talk" Tae says as he sits down at my bed. I spin to look at him, waiting for him to speak up, clearly nervous by his trembling feet. "So i have been seeing Sarah '' He started as his eyes widened, probably realizing how that sounded. "Not in that way" "I drank a little with her and today we had lunch" He continued. I raise my eyebrow and say nothing for him to continue talking. "And i asked if i could give you her number, and with a little help from a sweet little girl called Amelia, she couldn't say no" Tae said smiling at me, i smiled as well thinking of Amelia. She was one of the sweetest kids i had ever met, i completely melted by her way of being. "But hyung, i also have to tell you something" Tae said as his expression changed completely. "She lost the child due to too much stress," he continued, and my heart sank. "Oh wow" I said, not sure what else to say. "I wish I could have been there for her," I continued, and Tae nodded. "I know, and i said that as well" "But let me say, she doesn't blame us. All she said was that she chose for us not to be there, not the opposite." I smiled for myself knowing that was exactly something that would come out of her mouth and also something that would make her and I have a minor fight. "So Hyung, here" Tae said, giving me a small piece of paper with her number. "She is expecting your text" He continued, placing a hand on my shoulder as he walked to the door. "Taehyungie?" I said looking up at him. "Yeah?" He looked back. "Thank you" I said, nodding a little with a smile, causing him to smile his sweet big smile. "Oh and hyung?" He said. "Amelia calls you Boongi," He continued, laughing hysterically. "And she asked for you. Why you weren't there. Said you should always be there so Sarah could always smile" He smiled fondly at me. I knew Taehyung had always been the first one to support me in my feelings, even though he felt things as well and I have always appreciated him for that. Never have I met a less selfish person.

I looked at my phone for what seemed like hours, going through all the emotions. Firstly I started writing a casual message, deleted it again as I grew soft, wanting to tell her how much I love and miss her. Then I grew angry, deleted my message and started writing why I wasn't good enough for her and why she would be so stubborn always. I deleted that as well, ending up with just writing

Y: Hi angel, Here's my number. Give Amelia my best ;) Y

I laughed a little by writing Amelia's name, imagining how her and Tae had been nagging her until she said yes. I waited around for a little while for her replies, thinking what to text her next. If i should ask to meet her or that would be too much. I took a quick shower and got back to a text.

S: Hi Yoongles, I most definitely will. Miss you x

I smile for myself feeling a form of euphoria as I read her text, she still gives me those butterflies when she texts me after all these years.

Y: Miss you as well princess. Want to do something one of these days? I am really busy these days but as soon as I have some time off,

S: Would love that. Could you pass my number on to Jin? I need to talk to him about all the donation things. I haven't heard anything about it yet.

I furrow my brows, not sure why she hasn't heard anything yet. We decided how much we wanted to donate almost after we left her office.

Y: Here is his number. I'm sure he would be thrilled to hear from you ;)

I roll my eyes at my own answer. Thrilled? Who even says that anymore. She just makes me nervous in a way only she has ever been able to. As I suppose you feel, talking to someone you are sure is your soulmate. She answered, thanking me saying she hoped to see me soon. I ran my hand through my hair as I sighted. I had to make time for her soon.