With everything in me

Telling truths PT 2

Sarah POV

I walked to the door of the dorm. I promised myself I would never enter again with firm steps, fully aware of what I was going to walk into and not caring at all. I didn't do what I did on purpose, but he did. He did what I did to hurt me. He shared a picture of him getting sucked off. I didn't share my interaction with Namjoon. He did. I walked in, stepping out of my shoes as I received some hellos from the boys sitting in the living room but I was too focused to be able to answer them, knowing if I didn't do this as planned I would chicken out.

As I reached for his door, I hesitated and could feel the doubt running down my spine as a shiver, knowing I could possibly be walking in on something that would imprint on my brain forever and I wouldn't know if I could get past that. But pushing all my thoughts away I just broke through the door, seeing Yoongi laying with his arm around the girl, looking up at me and I could feel my tears pressing. The girl grabbed her clothes real quick and left the room as I sent her nasty looks all the way. As she was out I walked to Yoongi fast and started hitting him all over. "How could you" "I thought you loved me" You are a liar" You played with my feelings" I let everything out as i punched Yoongi as much as i could until he took a hold of my hands. "Well you did the same Sarah" He said, and I opened my eyes to look at him, and they were filled with nothing. Nothing was going on behind his eyes. "I WAS FORCED TO SUCK NAMJOON. HE PUSHED ME DOWN" LOOK" I screamed as i removed my hair for him to see the still visible fingerprints in my neck. "And HE was the one to share the picture he took. But YOU shared that picture with the only purpose to Hurt me" I said.

I punched him one last time, this time harder than before but he just removed me from him and left his room. I walked after him. "We are not done Yoongi" I screamed as we entered the living room where the others were getting ready to eat. Yoongi grabbed a plate from the dining table and threw it through the air with the clear purpose to hit Namjoon, but it didn't, and instead it hit the wall and broke to pieces. "WHAT THE FUCK" A lot of us shouted in choir, including Namjoon himself. Yoongi grabbed another Plate and tried to hit Namjoon again but he moved for it to hit the wall "YOONGI ARE YOU INSANE!" Jimin screamed, seeming scared. I went to him and hugged him tight. Yoongi walked to Namjoon and grabbed him by the arm. Namjoon ripped his arm to him and as he did so Yoongi gave him a punch right in the face, making Namjoon fall to the floor, and as he did so, Yoongi grabbed his shirt and pulled him to the door and picked him up, pushing him out. "Whenever you are done being a rapist you can come back here. Until then, this isn't your home." He said in a rough tone as he smacked the door, locking it.

I could hear Yoongi sigh deep and he turned around as our eyes met but Tae walked between us, hitting Yoongi in the face. "Have you absolutely lost your mind Yoongi? How could you possibly hurt the girl you have loved for forever on purpose like that? She has done everything to show you that you could trust her but as soon as you see that picture you just assume the worst and want to give back" Tae screamed. I had never heard him angry like this and it really made me unsure if all of this was really a good idea. "I have to go" I said, as I put on my shoes. "No, please don't leave us again," Jungkook said as he ran to me. I didn't know he was here as well so it caught me by surprise. "You have my number Kooks" "Call me" I said, giving him a big hug as i felt physically sick by how hurt he seemed. "That counts for you as well Chim chim" I said, looking at the little, scared man who had just seen his loved brothers fight. "Use me, okay?" Don't be scared to" i said to him as i pulled away from Jungkook. "Go to Jimin and take care of him" "He needs you right now kookie" I whispered to him as I placed a kiss on his cheek. "Let me take you home Sweetheart," Tae said, and I nodded. "Can we just drive by one of my friends? I have to pick up baby bell" I said as I reached for my jacket. "Of course," He said as he found his keys. "All of you. I love you. Just call me if you need me or visit me at the office" I said to the guys as I left the dorm feeling so heavily hurt that my feet could barely move.