With everything in me

Arriving home

Sarah POV

Our small vacation ended almost before it got a chance to start and during all of it I got more and more sure that Tae was the one. I really wanted to make it special when I told him, and also I had some others to talk to before I could let him know. So I didn't tell him directly just yet, even though I wanted to many times. I wanted to tell him just how much I appreciated him and that his effort was worth it.

As we arrived at the airport in Seoul we got picked up by Jungkook and Bluebell again. "How was the trip?" He asked, looking to the backseat through the rear view mirror. "It was everything I had ever dreamt of," Tae said, taking my hand and squeezing it. That response was all I needed to hear, knowing that I didn't ruin his safe space for him. I found Jungkook's eyes in the mirror and he nodded at me, probably happy that it all went well. "Before we arrive home I have to tell you that Namjoon is back. He apologized, and promised to let you be you around us and leave if that became too hard for him. " Jungkook said, making Tae grow territorial immediately, pulling his arm around my shoulder. "That's fine Jungkook, I also do have some things to talk to him and the rest of the boys about." I said, trying to avoid Tae's eyes. When we came home all the boys were sitting at the dinner table, eating lunch together. The first one to approach is Jin, who wraps me in a tight hug. "I hope you had so much fun" He said, letting go of me as I turned to see Jimin, smiling wide. "I have missed you two so much" He said, still just standing. "Come here my Jiminie" I said, spreading my arms and he walked fast into my arms and I held him tight. Tae wrapped his arms around both of us and we were all three hugging each other. "We missed you as well" I said, as we pulled apart. The next one to say his hello was Hobi who hugged me just as he always did, it was addictive how his hugs always were filled with such love and passion. I looked into his eyes, and as I did so his widened. He leaned into my ear. "You are so in love" He whispered and I laughed, playfully hitting him like I didn't know what he was talking about. Next one standing ready to say hi was Yoongi, and I felt tears building up as we hugged, knowing that he wasn't going to take the news very well when I would tell him. We pulled apart and I continued on to Namjoon who stood there, looking down with a sad expression. "Can we maybe talk?" He asks, looking up and I was surprised to see the true sorrow in his eyes. I nodded and turned to move upstairs but Tae grabbed my arm. "Yell if you need me" He said, and I smiled as I walked upstairs into Namjoon's room.

"Sarah, i am really, really sorry" He said, sitting on a chair in front of me. I really didn't wanna look at him. "I wasn't at my fullest self when things happened, not that it is any excuse but i hope you know that i, then Namjoon you know, would never purposely hurt you" And i knew that, i think that was the big deal and reason that i wasn't disappointed i him, i was just angry. "I promise that you will never have to experience that again and we all agreed that if you want to, you can tell the police" "They all think i deserve the punishment and i actually do as well" He said, and with those words i decided to look him in the eyes "I think you mind is the biggest punishment Namjoon" "I know you, and i know you are being very hard on yourself for this. I think you have enough in that" I said, offering a friendly smile. He nodded, laughing a little. "While I have you here I have something to say. You are the first one I'm telling it to and I really, really need you to keep it to yourself." I said, almost regretting the fact that I was about to tell Namjoon first. "I think I am in love with Tae," I said, and corrected myself. "No actually, I am in love with Tae." I said, searching for a reaction in Namjoon who just smiled softly at me. "You know, You are going to make that man the happiest he has ever been when you tell him that," Namjoon said, placing a hand on my shoulder. "He really deserves this win" He continued and I nodded, knowing that he was right. Tae really deserved this from me. With everything he has sacrificed for me, and with all the things he always just did without any hesitations. All his beautiful gifts. At this point I was doubting if i ever would be good enough for him. I left Namjoon's room to go find Jimin, Jungkook and Hobi, and have the same conversation with them. They were all very happy for me, and also convinced that Tae was going to be so happy. They all promised to not tell anyone else as I was left with the last three people, with whom the conversation scared me the most. Jin, Yoongi and Tae at last.