With everything in me

As the dark falls PT 2

Yoongi POV

As I sat down beside Jimin and looked over the table I saw an amount of alcohol that called for trouble. I reached for the soju bottle with the most percent in, pouring some i down and pouring some more. While pouring the second time I looked up to see Sarah looking at me with a tilted head. Her expression tells me nothing. Or maybe it was telling me that I was nothing. I chugged the second glass as I poured another one, feeling my throat becoming dry. We dug into the food and the air was uneasy and tense. We talked in groups and even if my conversation with Jimin and J - hope always was filled with meaningfulness I couldn't help but feel jealous of Kook, Tae and Jin who all had Sarah's full attention. The way they all seemed infatuated by her words, mouths hanging open and curling into smiles at times showed me that those she was in this group with were loving every second of it. "Hyung" Jimin shook me out of my trance and I looked at him confused. "I know you love her but you really messed up" He says and i can feel myself getting claustrophobic by how i get called out. I nod, knowing all too well. I looked down to my left, seeing Bluebell sitting beside me, along the chair's leg. I lean down to pet her, and she licks my hand back. Everytime this dog is in the house it is plastered to me, and I know that this dog just like Amelia knows what's up. Unable to relax in the constellation of tonight, Bluebell supported me through it all. I heard Sarah's real laugh, that I had always been able to tell apart from her forced one and I sat back up fastly to see what had her laughing. She was looking at Tae who also had his wide box smile covering his face as she placed a hand at his cheek. I sucked in a big amount of air as I realized what was happening in front of me. She was falling in love with Tae.

I Was on washing duty with Tae and there weren't many words shared between us, but suddenly he opened his mouth. "I had sex with Sarah" Tae said, and in pure shock i dropped the plate i had between my hands to the floor as it crushed into a million pieces, like my heart just had. "Oh my god, are you okay?" Sarah said as she came running and her eyes were on Tae. "Did you fuck Taehyung" I yell out as i can feel my tears build up, not able to control a single thing coming out of my mouth i look into Sarah's eyes, searching for the soul of the girl i love more then my own life. She looked back with a dark expression in her eyes. "You weren't there, were you Yoongi?" She yells at me, and I knew I had no business in feeling this betrayed, but I knew how much that must have meant to Tae and the way they have been together could only have been out of pure, mutual love because none of them ever does anything irrational or rushed. I stepped out of the kitchen, not caring if I stepped into the cullets on the floor, I walked to the stairs and I could see Bluebell following me. I turned to her, and her tail started wagging immediately "Stay down here Bell" I said to her, clapping her on her little head. "I don't deserve the comfort" I continued as I tried to turn her around, running upstairs but as I sat down on my bed I saw her shadow outside my door and decided to let her in.

I was sitting for a little while, just petting Bluebell, talking to her a little. Telling her how her mother was the only star in the constellation of his sky, how broken i felt right now, how much i hated myself for always choosing to hurt back as my reaction to being hurt and soon we had been talking for a while. "Yoongi, we are starting the games now. Come downstairs" Jin said in the door, and i stood up, shaking my head. I knew this was going to end awful.