With everything in me

The dinner PT 1

Sarah POV

As we arrived at the dorm I stood for a second outside. Nothing had really changed. I avoided passing it for everything in the world during everything I did in my daily life knowing it would recall a lot of different memories i wasn't ready to face back then, but i most definitely am ready to face now.

"No, Jungkook!" "Stop!" I said laughing as I ran away from the grass onto the hot asphalt making me hiss a little by the pain. "Get back here Sarah!" Jungkook screamed running right behind me with the water hose on full pressure letting the water cover me and I felt myself shiver from the coldness of the water.

"Jimin" "What are you doing out here?" I asked, placing myself on the stairs at the Porsche next to Jimin. I heard a small sniff. "Are you okay my favorite?" I asked as I placed a hand on his chin, turning his head for me to see his tears falling silently. "Why can't people just love me?" He asked as a sob left his lips and I pulled him into a tight hug. "Because sometimes it's easier to hate people when they are too perfect to understand" i said as we hugged for long

"Are you ready angel?" Yoongi said and placed a hand around my waist. "Let's go say hi" I said, looking up at Yoongi as I felt myself becoming more relaxed by meeting his eyes. As we entered a sensation of smells hit me right in the face and I closed my eyes and took a deep sniff, knowing Jin was standing in the kitchen, making my favorite dish. I looked to the kitchen as I found his eyes. We shared a big smile. "Thank you" I mouthed to him as I took off my shoes. I went into the living room to find Jimin and Jungkook. I gave Jimin a big hug and placed myself on top of Jungkook who was lying down and hugged him in that position. "Thank you for being here" He said, kissing the crown of my head. As I could hear a deep voice humming while walking down the stairs I stood up and met Tae's eyes as I ran to him and jumped into his arms and he spun me around. "I can't explain how happy it makes me feel, seeing you here again" "Thank you so much" Tae said as he placed me down on my feets again, kissing my cheek gently. "Hobi" I yelled up the stairs and within seconds i could hear feets as he ran down the stairs and wrapped his arms around me in a hug that could have mend all my broken pieces, almost feeling myself tear up but couldn't let that happen because i knew that just as happy and cheerful Hobi was, he was equally as sensitive and dark. We pulled away from each other and Hobi gave me a smile. "Good to have you home again my ray of sun" He said, letting his hand roam my cheek lightly.

"Is Joon in his room?" I asked the others and they nodded. "Sarah you don't have to" Yoongi said, placing a hand on my shoulder. "No, but the tension is not needed tonight. I can feel how emotional this is to all of us and we don't need it ruined" I said with a direct expression as i started walking up the stairs. The steps were heavy as I walked down the hallway I knew so well. The walls were empty before but now filled with pictures of their memories and accomplishments. I knocked on Namjoon's door and received an invitation to enter and I did so and as our eyes met his widen. He was lying in his bed, just in jogging clothes reading a book and normally that would have made me so soft for him, but I just smiled. I was happy to see he kept himself grounded through the crazy life they had been living. "Hey Joon" I said and placed myself at the end of the bed. He sat up as i reached the bed. "Sarah, what's up" He asked almost in a whisper, avoiding my eyes. "I just want you to know that i really want to be a part of the boys' life again" I said, looking down since eye contact was impossible with this man. "And if you can handle it, then let's start over and as friends" "Don't get any wrong ideas, i don't want to be with you ever again. But let's try being normal friends if you want" I continued and waited for him to speak. "I am truly sorry Sarah. About the baby" He started and I could hear his voice crack. "I know I had a big part of that fault. Friends are just fine" He said, and I could finally feel his eyes on me so I turned my head to meet them filled with tears. "Don't be too hard on yourself Joon" "You're a good man" "friends" i said, placing a hand on his shoulder, giving him a soft smile. "As a friend i would tell you to be a little careful with Yoongi" "He can be a handful" Namjoon said, and i looked away feeling myself getting mad. "Joon, I don't think I should trust your judgment anymore on that," I said as I stood up. "Time to eat" I continued as I could hear plates being placed by the table downstairs.