With everything in me

The morning after.

Sarah POV

As I woke up today I saw a text from a number I had tried to forget.

NJ: Come to the gym, lets talk

I knew yesterday must have been a little weird to him, so I decided to meet him at the gym to hear him out. As I walked to the gym, feeling myself struggle by the weird feeling i had in my chest i changed my mind many times on my way. As I reached for the door I found Namjoon standing in front of the big mirror lifting weights. His muscles had become quite big, and the tanktop he was wearing revealed a lot of that. The sweat glistened on his skin, as he looked shining. "Hey Joon, what's up?" I asked as I walked to him, placing myself on a chair in the corner of the room. "Yesterday was something else" "I missed having you around" He said as he placed the weights down, walking towards me with an intense look in his eyes, and my eyes can't help falling to the bulge in his pants as i felt myself getting nervous and almost scared. "I missed being here" I said, looking at his eyes again, finding it hard. "I have been this hard since we started playing yesterday and you gave that pretty little lapdance of yours" He said, standing right in front of me now, and my face was right in front of his pants. I looked up, but as I did he pushed my head down to keep me looking as he pulled his shorts down, revealing himself. "I'm sure Yoongi isn't that impressive, huh?" He said through gritted teeths, keeping my head near his dick. I tried to loosen his grip, but he made it even tighter as I did so. "Suck" He said, as he pulled my hair towards his dick, placed it at my mouth and pushed till I couldn't keep my mouth shut anymore. I screamed around his dick, but he felt it like pleasure, as well as the punches and scratches I tried giving him as he pumped me down on his dick, making me gag as tears fell from my eyes. His sounds were none like i had heard him before, he sounded manic and a shiver ran down my spine as a laugh left his lips but it sounded almost mean. I decided to get over with it, and when he was done i would never be near him again, but as i heard the sound of a camera go off, a rush of clarity came over me as i decided to bite down as he lost his grip on me, falling to the ground and i stood up and ran out the door as i swore to never put my feets there ever again. I took an uber back home, running directly to the bath where I stood under the shower for an hour, scrubbing myself and brushing my teeths a million times, feeling so dirty like he came under my skin. I gagged around my toothbrush trying to clean my throat as well. As I felt ready to leave the shower, not feeling clean at all, I saw messages coming in but the latest had me widen my eyes. It was a groupchat, made by Joon.

NJ: *Attached picture*

I dropped my phone as i saw the picture, as a scream of disbelief left my mouth. I fell to the floor as well and curled myself into a ball, crying loudly only able to think that i never would have my chance to explain because i wasn't going back.

When I felt a little more at ease I decided to text Namjoon.

S: I am going to report you to the police for sexual assault.

NJ: If you do that then your precious Yoongi and the others will suffer too. If one of our members goes down, we all do.

I knew he was right, so I decided not to continue the conversation, but tried to call Yoongi to explain as I knew he didn't know the context and it would have hurted. I called him four times, and each time he hung up on me, and right there I knew I was losing the only thing keeping me above waters right now.