With everything in me

Back again

Sarah POV

As I woke up today I felt happy. For the first time I felt what it was like to really be uncomplicatedly happy as I turned to look at Tae, sleeping soundly with a soft pout on his lips. The sun peeked through the curtains, partly blinding me as I lifted my head, making me lay back down in Tae's arm and he automatically pulled me closer, humming. "Let's never leave this bed" "I love having you in my arms" Tae said with his deep morning voice making me almost whimper. I just sigh as a response as I let myself relax in his embrace also never wanting to leave the uncomplicated bliss i feel. But even as I lay here feeling the most safe and happy, my mind wanders off to the love filled days with Yoongi. Even if that was never the most safe, nor happy thing we had, it was filled with so much passion and love. It was a breath of fresh air after being locked up in a smoke filled room for hours. it was feeling the warmth of the sun after days where you thought the rain would never end. He hurt me on purpose and i would never be able to forget what he did and i would never be able to forget who stood by my side afterwards, but i need to talk to him and i need to see if the vision of him laying with another girl is what i see when i look at him. "Baby bear, can we go to the dorm? I need to talk to all of them. Yesterday was" He interrupts me. "Hectic, yeah." Let's get ready and I will take you" He said and planted a kiss on my nose. I stood up and went to my clothes where I put on some basic black jeans and a sweatshirt. "Lets bring Baby bell" "I think the boys could need a little puppy therapy" Tae said as i came down the stairs, seeing them cuddled up on the couch. "Okay, let's go you two" I said, laughing as we went for the car.

As we opened the door, Bluebell went upstairs as Tae and I looked confused at each other. She hasn't been to the dorm before. I looked to the living room and saw Jungkook sitting, watching something and as he turned his head to me I gasped. He looks pale and has bags under his eyes. "Kookie," I said as I approached him, sitting down beside him. "I have been sitting here since you left, making sure Namjoon hyung didn't sneak in," He said, looking at me with his tired doe eyes. "Kook, go to sleep. We are taking the next shift" Tae said as he placed himself on the other side of Jungkook, a hand on his lap. Jungkook nodded as he brought me into a big hug. "I'm so sorry that happened to you" He said and I could feel myself tear up. "Don't think about it Kookie, I'm okay now" I said, trying to sound believable. "Let me follow you up, I have to find bluebell" I said, and his eyes lit up. "Was that dog the Bluebell?" He said, looking at me and Tae. Tae laughed, "Yeah, i might have told the others about bluebell" I rolled my eyes. "You and that dog" I said as I shook my head. I followed Jungkook to the door of his room and gave him a big hug. "I love you Kooks" I said in the hug, receiving a "You too" As he went in to sleep.

I walked down the hallway yelling bluebell's name and she suddenly peaks out through a door, but walks back in as i come. I sigh as I close my eyes, breathing for a minute before I push the door open and see Bluebell sit beside Yoongi on the bed as he pets her, laughing at her eagerness to lick him. "Bluebell, come here" I say in a soft voice and she does. I look down to her, petting her with a smile and stand back up to meet Yoongi's eyes. I let my tears fall, not able to control it. "Sarah, please give me a minute," Yoongi said, grabbing my arm as I turned to walk out. "Yoongi i can't" I said, as i pulled my arm away, walking down to the living room with Bluebell. Jin and Tae were sitting on the couch talking. "Hi Jinie" I said, and before he could turn his head to look at me, Bluebell jumped to his lap. "Whoa" "This must be the famous Bluebell" He said, as we all laughed at the dog attacking him. Bluebell continued on to Tae as I placed myself on Jin's lap, and he pulled me into a tight hug. "Bluebell and I have to go," I say, looking at Jin with a sad expression. "I'm not doing this anymore" Jin said and lifted me off his lap as he went upstairs, and came back shortly after. "We are having dinner and drinks tonight" "everyone. Except Namjoon naturally ""No skipping. I'm using my hyung card for this one" He said as he pointed between me and Tae.