With everything in me

For the rest of my life.

Sarah POV

As I arrived at the store I started picking up all the things I needed. Strawberries, chocolate, light chains, a soft blanket and some sodas and wine. I paid and hurried home to take a bath, washing myself with all the different soaps I thought the times had gotten compliments for by Tae and suddenly my mind went off. It all felt like a sick dream and I was wondering what was true and what wasn't. Was he actually going to be happy? I reminded myself of how everyone had told me he was going to be very happy as I dried myself off. I looked at myself in the mirror as I touched my lips. I was reminded of the last time we kissed as I grew hungry for another kiss. I put on some of my most revealing underwear as I pulled a black tight dress over my head. it went just above my knees and then i put a black, big knitted cardigan on top of it as i thought it might be a little cold at the beach tonight. I dried my hair as I curled it and put half of it into a bun. I started getting things ready. Melting the chocolate to cover the strawberries and cooling off the drinks. I put some batteries in the lightning chains as I was getting ready to go pick up Tae.

"You look beautiful princess," Tae said, grabbing my hand, spinning me around. I look at him, biting his lip. I look into the living room where all the six men were sitting, watching us with only fond expressions and I smile as my eyes meet Yoongi's. "Have fun you two" Jimin said, giggling with Jungkook beside him. Shaking my head I grabbed Tae as we left. Tae started walking towards his own car as I pulled at his arm. "No Tae, I'm driving tonight" I said, pointing to my car. He pouts, but agrees as we walk to my car. He opens the car door for me, and runs to the passenger seat. As we drove off I could feel him shifting in his seat and picking his lip and I knew he was nervous. "Tae, there is no reason for you to be nervous" I said, laughing at him a little. "You can say that very well but everything has been so weird today. People being sad or extremely sweet" "And now this" He said, looking over at me. I found his eyes, grabbed his hand and intertwined our fingers for us to help each other with the gear lever. "Sing me a song baby bear, one to help you relax" i said, and he immediately started singing a soft song with his deep voice, making me almost tear up. I really hope this wasn't going to ruin our friendship.

As we arrived at the beach, I had things to do. "Can you just wait here for five minutes? When I send you a text you can come find me" I said, releasing his hand. "How do I find you?" He asked with big eyes. "You will know Tae," I said, knowing the light would guide him. As i left the car i found the perfect spot as i spread the blanket and surrounded it with the light chains, I pulled out my strawberries and the wine with two glasses and when i felt everything was ready i texted Tae to come find me. And realization came over me as I started feeling my heart hammer in an extreme speed, and my hands getting sweaty. He approached and I was mesmerized by the beauty of him. The way the wind was pulling in his hair and blazer, exposing his shirt underneath and his sparking eyes that were big by the surprise. He pulled me in, lifting me up as he spun us around in the hug. Letting me down carefully he looks into my eyes. "This is beautiful, thank you for doing this for me" He said, kissing my cheek and then pulling me towards the blanket that we both placed usself on. We talked for a little while, laughing, but I could always feel how tense the air was. I knew his mind was off to god knows what awfulness but I was finding it way too difficult to open this talk, even if i really wanted to just get it over with. So we continued our normal talk for a while, laughing and flirting as Tae fed me a strawberry.

"Sarah, why are we here?" Tae asked, looking at me with desperate eyes, and I guess that now was the time. "So, I know I have never been good at expressing myself to you. My deeper feelings" I started off, finding a small light on the light chain to focus on, so I wouldn't meet his eyes. "I have been so confused Tae, and I am so sorry for ever making you feel like less than you are because you really are the only stable and secure thing in my life" I continued. Tae tried turning my head to him, but I held it steadily at the light. "You are scaring me," He said, in a low tone. "But there is no reason to be scared Baby bear. I really want to explain how I feel about you but no words really seem to capture it well enough. You always tell me that you are not what I want. I guess your insecurities are the fault for that. But as we were sitting at the eiffel tower I knew" I look at Tae, wanting him to believe me. "That you are everything I want." "I know i suck at using my words, but i will try and show with my heart for the rest of my life how much i love you, and how life isn't life without you if you let me" i said, feeling myself shake a little in the last words, tears falling from my eyes, as well as from Tae's eyes. "Are you serious?" He asks in a pout. "As serious as i could ever be Baby bear" I said, reaching for his cheek to dry off the falling tear. He grabbed my hand, pulling me closer as he placed a sweet kiss on my lips. As we parted he looked at me with the biggest smile, eyes shining. "You won't regret this," He said. "I know," I answered. And I knew I wouldn't. I had never been so sure of anything as I was of the fact that I had to be with Taehyung for the rest of my life. "Before i left, Jin came to my room and told me that I should doubt myself less because if you liked the person i was it was a compliment" He said, and i smiled at the sweet gesture of Jin who took the news the best of all of them. "And now, I think I can be myself in another way because he is right. If you love me, then I must do something right" He continued, and my tears continued to fall. I wish I would have seen this before so he could have this realization before. He deserves everything. "I think that is absolutely perfect, Tae" I said, placing myself in his lap. He looked at me shortly, and then up at the star filled sky. "I want to explain to you all the reasons why I love you, but even if all these stars were a reason, I would run out of stars" He said, and I knew. I knew he loved me beyond words, we always were beyond words and that might have been one of our weaknesses. But right now, sitting together in the chilly weather on the beach, listening to the waves wash up on the beach as we were looking at the same stars, nothing was a weakness to us anymore. It all started with Taehyung and it all ended with Taehyung and if that wasn't the most perfect love story, then I don't know what would be. Then again, I never really was a romantic in any way.

"You have some explaining to do to your other girlfriend" I said, looking at him, raising my eyebrow. He looked confused at me until he realized. "I think Amelia will understand," He said. We both laughed, as we shared another kiss out of many.