My Poems

I should have answered when you asked how I was

Everyone says I'm fine

They say it's just a faze

But in my mind

There's a haze

I'm too tired to get up, yet can not sleep

I'll talk for hours, yet not make a peep

I feel empty but so full

My mind is always knocking at deaths door

As if the rope of life could snap at any pull

There's so many emotions

But I'm so numb

Wanting to cause a commotion

Still I bite my thumb

For if I speak out about how I feel

Everyone claims how I feel, isn't real

Want to be heard

I want to feel valid

But you silence every word

Just, Eat your salad

They say kids have it easy

If only they knew

Their words are sleazy

They aim to hurt you

Every breath we take

We assume is a mistake

I know how it feels, no one knows or cares

That's what I thought, why don't I just get out of their hairs

So I left them a note, I wrote it with care

I left it on the table, I left it right there

I ask you to tell them of the small time I could share

After all I've seen of this place it's only fair

I wasn't happy, but content

Until I saw the anguish your face sent

You saw me there surrounded in red

Like the petals of the rose

As scarlet ink bled

Tears Streaming down right past your nose

You just stood there, you froze

Why am I just now realizing I've made a mistake

You were there for me

Every moment, everyday

I didn't realize, too blind to see

You were there in every memory

Calling out to me but I didn't hear

I ran away from you out of fear

I can't take it back, I wish I could

If givin the choice, just know I would

This isn't how I wanted it

Even if we're heaven sent

I may be gone, but please don't cry

There's no need to wonder why

I made a mistake

That may be true

I brought you heart ache

But I'm still next to you

Look at the moon

Cause you'll see me again, one day soon

Just remember I've always loved you