Extraordinarily Ordinary

Should I Or Should I Not

Hey guys! Guess what? This is a super duper special chapter because... it's not from Beth's point of view? WHAAAAT? That's so crazy, right? I just figured maybe you want to get a look at what Isaac's thinking. Just a change of scenery, you could call it. That's right... this super duper special chapter is in Isaac's POV! I hope you like it! Also, I'm making sure to keep my word by updating frequently. This book is almost over! Also, also, the song above is Helplessly by Tatiana Manaois.

Isaac's POV-

I couldn't get her out of my mind. Everything about her drove me insane. Her gorgeous smile, her kindness towards others, her humor, her passion about everything she pursued, I could go on and on. She and Noah walked out the door and I collapsed in one of the chairs. She must have thought I was some kind of monster after what I did.

But I couldn't help myself. I saw what he had done... and I just lost it. Seeing her on the floor, bleeding, and Holly, screaming for help. It broke me. I couldn't control my rage. I knocked him out, but then I kept going. I used him as a punching bag for all my anger and frustration that I had built up over so long. Ever since I had met Beth, I had tried so hard to control myself, but in that moment... I just couldn't.

I hated myself for what I did. But I still thought he deserved it. Maybe I was just sorry because Beth had seen me. The very thought of that sick bastard made me want to break something. I looked down at my hands, his blood still on my hands. I thought about when I'd tried to hold her hands. The look she gave me... it killed me.

I finally looked up to see my mother's smiling face. "Isaac, I'm taking Holly home. Are you coming?" She was wearing her regular outfit. A pantsuit, and her hair tied into a tight bun. She had probably come straight from work. My mother? Leaving work? Impossible. 

I took a deep breath, and replied,"No, I have to go do something, but I'll be home soon." She simply nodded and left. I didn't actually have anything to do, I just needed to get my thoughts in order. I drove to my escape, that I had taken Beth on our first date. Who knows if she thought of that night as a date, but I certainly did. 

I climbed up the stairs,opened the doors and sat under the millions of stars. Beth was right about me, I'm a player. I didn't plan to move to Cambridge High and set my sights on one girl. But somehow, I did.

But from the minute I saw her, I knew there was something different about her. I loved how she wasn't afraid to tell me off and speak her mind. And I admired how she had this drive to the best so that she could make something of herself. Unlike me, who didn't have a plan for my future.

At first, she was just another girl, a challenge, but as I got to know her, she became so much more to me. When she would hurt, I wanted to find the person responsible and beat the shit out of them. And when she talked to another guy, I wanted to beat the the shit out of them too.

I wanted her to be mine. Seeing her, with my best friend, killed me. She preferred him over me. But it was better that way. Chase was all the things, I wasn't. Kind, caring, smart. They deserved each other. It was best for her to be with a guy like him. I eventually checked my phone and realized it was past midnight. I quickly headed home and lied in bed, unable to sleep, tossing and turning. Thoughts of her consumed me.