Random Thoughts of a Teenage Girl

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As if everything that's happening isn't depressing enough, my only friend that has been with me through all my years is turning against me.. Music.

I put a playlist on shuffle, and it killed me.

First Dance - NeverShoutNever
The song he sang to me

I Miss You - 5 Seconds of Summer (cover)
The song I sang to him

If I'm James Dean, You're Audrey Hepburn (acoustic) - Sleeping With Sirens
Our song

Yeah I've been crying inside for almost 24 hours and through all of that I've cried twice.
Drago49er knows how hard it is to get me to cry..
This is all pretty bad.
Absolutely horrible
Tramatizing
Stabbing my insides
Caused me panic attacks in the last 24 hours
A tear is spilling out of my right eye
Yas... Angry music.. Someone needs to throw me in a mosh pit. I will PUNCH that midgit
The First Punch by Pierce The Veil is playing
Yas!
The way I solve problems
I get angry
Then want to punch walls...

Thank you, World, for making happiness so difficult to grasp.

Seriously, my own father seems to hate me now.
My sisters understand this problem and that's a huge relief.
Dare4Distance.. THIS IS NOT ANGRY MUSIC!!!!!!
Happy - NeverShoutNever
STILL NOT ANGRY
THE UNIVERSE IS TRYING TO TELL ME SOMETHING
The Duet - NSN
Still not angry..
Sweet Perfection - NSN
Nope
Heartbeat - Stereo Skyline
Nope
Just The Way You Are - Pierce The Veil
Okay I'm going to stab stuff now.

IM NOT HAPPY. STOP PLAYING HAPPY MUSIC. I NEED MOSH PIT STARTER MUSIC. THIS. IS. NOT. MOSH PIT.