Random Thoughts of a Teenage Girl

Radio

I ponder of something great,
My lungs will fill
Then indeflate

They fill fire,
Exhale desire

I know it's dire,
My time today

I have these thoughts
So often I ought to replace that slought with what I once bought
Cause somebody stole my radio
Now I just sit in silence..

Sometimes quiet is violent
I find it hard to hide it
My pride is no longer inside
It's on my sleeves
My skin will scream
Reminding me of who I killed inside my dream
I hate this car that I'm driving
There's no hiding for me
I'm forced to deal with what I feel
There's no distraction to mask what is real

I could pull the steering wheel
But it's too far for me to reach
So, I'm forced to keep
I have these thoughts
So often I ought to replace that slought with what I once bought,
Somebody stole my radio
Now I just sit in silence

I ponder of something terrifying
Now there's no sound to hide behind
I find over the course of our human exsistence
One thing consists of consistence
And it's that we're battling fear

I don't know if we know why we're here
Oh my,
Too deep
Please, stop thinking
Cut my wrist
Stain me red
I liked it better when I bled

Let me slit
Leave me with blood
I'll paint the walls and leave more scars
They become deeper,
My thoughts grow creepier
I liked it better when I had sounds

When I didn't cry,
Didn't wish to die,
When bedroom walls weren't better than any guy

When I didn't wake in the middle of night craving for a scratch or two,
When laughing was true,
When smiles meant something,
When I was me and you were you

I miss you here
Your brightening smile
I could be me when you were here

But now your gone,
I'm truely broken
All my words haven't been spoken

I will not eat,
Will not sleep,
Only keep my feelings to me
My eyes are blind
My mind is one-sided
Someone help
Please, help me..

(this is a song I converted into a poem then added more words and worded it my own way. The song is Car Radio by Twenty One Pilots and if any of you were confused, radio and car are metaphors for their *my*your* mind and such..
Car = Mind
Radio = Distraction from thoughts
Thoughts = Depression
I hope you enjoyed and im sorry if its a trigger warning but i write when im depressed and ive been thinking a lot lately..)