Broken arrows

8.

One month later

My suspicion was right, we never had sex after that again.
We had a huge fight after Christian's barbecue because he actually invited Lara.

I was so mad. I kept it in during the barbecue because I didn't want to cause a scene but it came all out afterwards.

He wanted to involve her into more things, but why? I just didn't understand it and he couldn't explain it either.

But it became all very clear only a couple of weeks later when he started dating her.
He left me, for her.

But for once, I didn't run away.
For once, I stayed to face my problems.

It was obviously not easy to work so close to Lando but I promised myself to stay strong, to not show it.
So every day, I walked in the paddock with a smile on my face even though I cried myself to sleep every night.

It was the last race before the summer break and unfortunately I had no plans whatsoever.

"So how are you holding up babes?" Kelly asked as we were both sitting in front of the Red Bull hospitality.

She became a good friend over the past few months even though I knew it probably wasn't easy for them. They were also friends with Lando, so they were literally in between both of us.

I shrugged my shoulders. "I am okay, just trying to keep my mind of things"

"Do you have plans for the summer?" She tried to change the subject and once again, I shook my head.

I was probably gonna help Josh in the store even though I didn't work there anymore, it would be fun to go help Josh.

And hopefully Kara would make some time for me, I knew she was going on a vacation with Charles, they asked me to go with them, but I didn't want to be the third wheel.

"You should come with Max and I" she said enthusiastically. Another couple who wanted me to join them.

I looked at her, she looked so excited and I hated to turn her down but I just didn't want to bother them.
"I don't know Kelly, I don't wanna be a bother on your vacation together."

"Don't worry Aimée, you're not a bother and besides, a lot of other friends are also joining us"

"Okay, I'll think about it" I smiled, maybe it would be nice to go on a vacation.
I definitely needed the sun and some good cocktails.

"You definitely should think about it, we would love to have you there" She smiled.

I was so grateful to have her in my life, I thought she would drop me after Lando and I broke up.
But she didn't and neither did Max, they were actually extra nice to me.

I put my head on my hand and looked around. I enjoyed being here, but unfortunately my view got blocked by Lando and Lara who were walking together.

They looked happy, he looked happy.

"Is he happy?" I asked as I looked at Kelly. She shrugged her shoulders. "He's been coming over less and less. Max doesn't really hang out with him that much anymore"

"Is she nice to him?"

"Babes, I don't really know. She was nice to him the couple of times I saw them together" she looked at me. "But I will always think he was happier with you, he was more in love with you, he wanted a future with you"

But then why did he leave me? Why was he dating her if he loved me?
I thought we would get through this together, I thought he was the one, which he definitely was.

I don't think I will ever be able to find another love like this.
I don't think I will ever love again, not like I loved him.